Can't cry

[PetraFan007]

Hey all.

I have this issue where I get depressed, sad, anxious, and just overall very emotional but I can't seem to release it. I hear that crying helps release stuck emotions and clears out toxins, but as soon as I feel like I'm going to cry, it just doesn't happen. Sometimes it is frustrating, sometimes it is scary. Sometimes, I get so anxious about how much emotion I'm going to feel that I shut down. Sometimes, events that would make normal people cry make me either angry or numb. Sometimes, randomly, a sad song can make me cry a little. But I always feel like it's incomplete.

The last time I really cried was at an Encounter (an Assemblies of God event). What was overwhelming was the fact that I don't know how to receive or give love. In fact, it was so deep, that it went beyond the thought that I didn't deserve love. It's almost as if I was questioning why I even needed love. It feels like a foreign concept to me... one I've only had glimpses of. I see myself in the mirror and sometimes hate what I see--or try not to think about it/block it out. The thought of "loving" myself seems so crazy. I know it comes down to a lack of feeling worthy. I feel so stuck in this emotional disorder that it feels like I can't get out. I feel trapped. Please pray for me.

Thanks!

 

[Mountainmanbob]

Keep a strong onion available at home.

When you think you need to cry work on that onion it will help.

Once you get primed who knows the floodgates may open up.

M-Bob

 

[Dave-W]

Keep a strong onion available at home.

When you think you need to cry work on that onion it will help.

Once you get primed who knows the floodgates may open up.

That may work for some. It depends on why you are unable to release it.

For me, it was beaten out of me by age 7, and at age 62 still cannot release that way except on very rare occasions, like twice in the last 20 years.

 

[Jeshu]

Yes i know what you mean i suffer largely from the same problem. To scared to cry as well because my emotions seem overwhelmed when i do, though this has become much better the last few years. i think it is very important that you re-find the ability to cry especially when you have times of depression. Release of bad emotions is important. When we hurt then we cry being bigger an stronger has nothing to do with it, just the opinion of the old timers.

Please do remember that not caring about yourself is a very dangerous thing to do to your well being. For years i hated myself and my depression was relentless, when i finally let Jesus teach me to love myself with His love that things began to improve, not before. i we don't have a healthy self love then we do ourselves a constant disservice.

Much love doing the loving.