Need prayers. Don't have a sitter so I can work. My husband is always working, but has to give so much to his ex. My stepmother just chastised me for my child not "knowing her and my father" well. They're rather uncaring and abusive, and I don't care for my child to be subjected to their out of control emotions. While I protect my child from all of the dysfunction around me, I have the dysfunctional people saying that I'm over protective. Could it be? I wouldn't hand my baby over to some of them, any more than I'd hand her over to a crocodile. And yet we need money.
I must say, my husband does agree that he doesn't want his or my family watching our daughter on a regular basis. And I'm terrified of hiring someone I don't know to do come into our home, unsupervised, to watch her. While my husband and I are also dysfunctional, I resist the pattern with everything I am. My little girl is treated with love and guidance. On occasion I do have to tell daddy to watch his tone, or please rethink what he's trying to say, or I'll just interpret what daddy is "trying" to say (and say it nicely.) I belive setting a good example for my husand to follow is the strongest encouragement. Though he's far from perfect, he tries his hardest to be true to this child. (Knowing that I'm a mother-bear at heart doesn't hurt any, either.)
I need to know if the Lord wishes me to remain with my child another year, or if I should listen to the people who are tired of my poverty...and want me to hire a stranger and go to work. Or worse yet, leave my child with the people who I know are disrespectful to children...having been a child subjected to their cruelty. No one is more tired of my poverty than me. Bottom line: this world is cruel. I don't know who to trust with my little lamb.
I was told that the Lord would take care of those who take care of theirs. If I feel this strongly in my heart, should I be listening to the others?
Lord, please let me hear You. I don't know if I'm too unworthy to hear You, or You aren't speaking to me directly. Please, Lord, hear my prayers. Please keep our home. Please don't let my little one be without her home. Please soothe my tired nerves, and show me the way...if the way is mine to see.
I do feel that perhaps He isn't speaking to me. My husband said he's trying to get a 2nd job through a friend. And my husband has been quite decent since my fellow-Christians have been praying for us. I do believe ALL THINGS are possible through God.
Please don't get disgusted with me, and give up. I'm in a rather hopeless situation...but you are all the hope I have.
I must say, my husband does agree that he doesn't want his or my family watching our daughter on a regular basis. And I'm terrified of hiring someone I don't know to do come into our home, unsupervised, to watch her. While my husband and I are also dysfunctional, I resist the pattern with everything I am. My little girl is treated with love and guidance. On occasion I do have to tell daddy to watch his tone, or please rethink what he's trying to say, or I'll just interpret what daddy is "trying" to say (and say it nicely.) I belive setting a good example for my husand to follow is the strongest encouragement. Though he's far from perfect, he tries his hardest to be true to this child. (Knowing that I'm a mother-bear at heart doesn't hurt any, either.)
I need to know if the Lord wishes me to remain with my child another year, or if I should listen to the people who are tired of my poverty...and want me to hire a stranger and go to work. Or worse yet, leave my child with the people who I know are disrespectful to children...having been a child subjected to their cruelty. No one is more tired of my poverty than me. Bottom line: this world is cruel. I don't know who to trust with my little lamb.
I was told that the Lord would take care of those who take care of theirs. If I feel this strongly in my heart, should I be listening to the others?
Lord, please let me hear You. I don't know if I'm too unworthy to hear You, or You aren't speaking to me directly. Please, Lord, hear my prayers. Please keep our home. Please don't let my little one be without her home. Please soothe my tired nerves, and show me the way...if the way is mine to see.
I do feel that perhaps He isn't speaking to me. My husband said he's trying to get a 2nd job through a friend. And my husband has been quite decent since my fellow-Christians have been praying for us. I do believe ALL THINGS are possible through God.
Please don't get disgusted with me, and give up. I'm in a rather hopeless situation...but you are all the hope I have.