Bipolar and rage.

[Jeshu]

I suppose my issue is raging anger. How do you cope with rage? I try to contain my rage but find that it bubbles out of my pores at times.
I'm usually a reasonable kind of person but all reason goes out of the window when I get mad.

Now I know that Jesus advised us not to let the sun go down on your anger, but that is not the trouble, my rage doesn't last long it is just that it is so vicious and uncontrollable when it is around.

 

[serephim02]

IDK but I suffer from that same bipolar rage, someone could say something on this forum for instance and it could set me off. Its scary because I just got fired the other week and all I could think of was getting my boss back. Then I played some games and cooled off. So in essence maybe play some games or find a hobby. I play guitar and take my rage and make something with it.

Games are good if you can handle them, I play P2 or postal 2 to relieve stress. It does a very good job so I have no complaints yet. Find some relaxing music, I listen to Alice in Chains jar of flies album and that helps so much.

For those naysayers on P2, IDK I play this so I dont snap on people.

Sorry if that doesnt help but I hope it does. God bless!

 

[Alive again]

Ugh, my computer dumped quite a bit of this post! I hate it when It does this! I always have such a hard time recreating it! So here goes. . . This is the hardest battle for me with this illness. I can go from 0 to 60 so quickly with my rage and then I switch immediately to sucidality as I am so horrified by what I have done or said in my anger. I have gotten better at recognizing early warning signs in my life. One is when I notice that my husband chewing is so loud it is driving me towards irritation. I know that my husband does not chew any louder at any given time. So my husband and I have sat down and talked about early warning signs, so hopefully we can work as a team to help prevent these episodes. I try to warn him and my family about such times, so we both know to tread a little more carefully during this time. I have developed and talked with my hubby so we agree about a multistep (simple) plan for what to do as the rage progresses. Usually I work so hard at preventing it, that I have been able to recognize a progression where we can either one of us leave, choose to discuss something later, or learn to handle things in a different way (Yes, we are in couple's counseling for this). My hubby knows my final warning sign before I blow is when i go nonverbal. And then we have agreed that if I blow either one of us can leave to get space, and if it is late at night we have agreed that either one of us can go to a motel for the night to cool down the situation. That has only happened once so far. We have also agreed to try to meet in public to talk about any real difficult things that may trigger either one of us. (My hubby also has anger control issues) This system has helped tremendously. Btu the truth is there are just times it is not controllable and is a symptom of this illness called bp. I am in the process of reading a good book right now called "The Other Side of Love, Handling Anger in a Godly way" by Gary Chapman. It is echoing some teaching I had about 10 years ago about what is anger, why did God create emotions and how can you be angry and sin not, etc. We will still make mistakes. The question is will we speak the same as God about our sin and Then of course, always go to the person and ask for forgiveness for the harm you have caused. I always taught my kids, that we are to try to do all we can to live in love with one another, but we are human and we will make mistakes. As a Christian, the question then is, Will we do the right thing and acknowledge it and seek to rectify the situation in a Godly manner. I do believe that although it is a symptom of illness, it is our responsiblity to deal with inappropaite anger as a sin. Others may disagree with me there. I also have relaxation tapes and other things that help me to refocus my mind off of the anger. Over time the anger is happening less, but it is still a possibility for me, as I truly believe it is a symptom of this illness. Also know that anger outward is easy for us to figure out, but suicidality is anger directed inward. . . Not sure if any of this will be helpful, but just a few of my thoughts this am in a rather LONG post. Blessings and prayers!

 

[berry2000]

I never raged until I was on medication. They say the rage is part of the manic end of it and the antidepressants send me into it.

But it is awfully difficult. Especially since i have never been an angry person before.

All this to say i understand what you are saying Jeshu. The only thing i've found that helps is to get myself away from the siutation and get by myself until it passes. That and a whole lot of biting my tongue. If i spoke what i thought...i 'd do a lot of damage. And sometimes it seeps out like you say and I do the damage.

 

[angelkiss]

I suffer from the same thing.
With me, as long as someone don't help escalate things, I can usually get busy doing something and stop it afore it hits. But, if someone adds to the problem, I spin out of control and go into a blind bipolar rage afore I know it. I'm talking of a rage that causes me to throw things (anything that's already in my hands) and not even realize it til after the fact. Sometimes I don't even remember it.

 

[FragileWinter]

What helps me cope with my bipolar mood swings is creative things. I know you may think I am young and don't know what I am talking about but I have researched bipolar disorder and have worked on my own with mine for many years. Serephim02 is right, Bipolar disorder is often misdiagnosed as depression and anti-depressants cause it to go into a mixed stage causing confusion, anger, and other dangerous emotions. Also, it is good to play games, draw, write, or act. Anything that can get your mind off things. It is also good to have a close, understanding friend to help you through tough times. I know my boyfriend has supported me for three years and I owe him a lot.
Also, bipolar disorder doesn't have to be a burden. I have actually become fond of mine now that I can pretty much deal with it.
God bless you,
Aya

 

[Alive again]

Kudos to your for your wisdom and research and understanding at your age. Wise words are not just from age!!! Even the Bible says that. If you don't know the verse I can look it up for you! Welcome to Cf and know we will not look down on you for your age here!! You are always welcome here!!! Reps to you today!!!

 

[berry2000]

Sometimes i break dishes.

 

[Alaskamomma]

I have asked for a punching bag, but my husband doesn't think I am serious. I have a lot, a lot, a lot of rage. (sigh)

 

[searchingforpeace]

I suppose my issue is raging anger. How do you cope with rage? I try to contain my rage but find that it bubbles out of my pores at times.
I'm usually a reasonable kind of person but all reason goes out of the window when I get mad.

Now I know that Jesus advised us not to let the sun go down on your anger, but that is not the trouble, my rage doesn't last long it is just that it is so vicious and uncontrollable when it is around.

I have dealt with anger and rage since I can remember. I use to be really bad about destroying things...I remember sometime when I was 15 I went into a rage and destroyed every single belonging in my bedroom. I have thrown and broken many dishes. I have had many workbooks that therapist have suggested I work through...those have been ripped to shreds...Stopped even attempting to them. I would say the self injury came from rage and anger and not knowing what to do with it. Is it under control now? I guess. I don't destory stuff anymore. But it is still inside of me and I feel bad for my husband b/c he is the one who has to deal with it. I guess I hold it all in and it makes me wicked cranky. I get very mad at people, very easily which tends to me holding a grudge. I hate anger and rage more than any other emotions. For me, it eats away at me. After some time I get over stuff, but it usually takes a long time. I do try to go to God when I am feeling these things and I know that even if I can't tell at that moment he is there helping me. I think most of the time I am just so lost in my emotion, that I can't hear him. Ok, so no real advice here...sorry about that. Just wanted you to know that you are not alone. *hugs*

Dianna

 

[Jeshu]

I have dealt with anger and rage since I can remember. I use to be really bad about destroying things...I remember sometime when I was 15 I went into a rage and destroyed every single belonging in my bedroom. I have thrown and broken many dishes. I have had many workbooks that therapist have suggested I work through...those have been ripped to shreds...Stopped even attempting to them. I would say the self injury came from rage and anger and not knowing what to do with it. Is it under control now? I guess. I don't destory stuff anymore. But it is still inside of me and I feel bad for my husband b/c he is the one who has to deal with it. I guess I hold it all in and it makes me wicked cranky. I get very mad at people, very easily which tends to me holding a grudge. I hate anger and rage more than any other emotions. For me, it eats away at me. After some time I get over stuff, but it usually takes a long time. I do try to go to God when I am feeling these things and I know that even if I can't tell at that moment he is there helping me. I think most of the time I am just so lost in my emotion, that I can't hear him. Ok, so no real advice here...sorry about that. Just wanted you to know that you are not alone. *hugs*

Dianna

Thank you very much for sharing that. We both know that rage is linked to sickness not personality. I suppose I 'eat' my rage that is how much I swallow. It is very rare that I raise my voice - but the rage still consumes.