Beating myself up...

[ToxicBex]

Um...I've been beating myself up recently....and lyk punching myself in the stomach, on my arms, on my legs, etc... and I wanna stop. I'm basically doing it because I feel really lyk upset and stuff...and I'm really dumb, stupid, and always get confused, and it depresses me because people just give up in the end, trying to explain things to me. When I do it, I feel better...it doesn't really hurt that much, but it leaves bruises, and I don't want the bruises. But I can't stop doing it.

I keep praying about it, and tell God everything that's troubling me, but I don't feel any better for doing that. The pain helps me...saying it to God, doesn't!

(I know it's a really weird thing to do... but oh wells)

So yeah...Can anyone help me please?

Much Love

Bex
x

 

[Mr.Cheese]

Don't say those things about yourself.

 

[ToxicBex]

But they're what I think is true. There's a lot more that I have a low opinion of my self in, but I didn't put it because the list would go on forever...

 

[beetlequeendiva]

Bex, I don't know why you're doing these things but if you need to talk just PM me, I am going through the same things as you are and I realise that it is hard!!! Keep on praying, God will not let you go through something you can't deal with

 

[Jet1988]

My gosh Bex. You shouldn't say those things about yourself. maybe you should continue to pray and also talk to somebody else. Maybe having somebody there who you can see or at least hear properly will help. If you ever need something don't hesitate to ask.

 

[ToxicBex]

Thanks people

 

[Loopi]

*hugs* hey hun am sorry to hear that you feel like this is the only way to release what you feel. I know talking to God can often feel like it isnt always helping, but maybe you dont always give him chance to respond? Sometimes i tell God how much i am hurting, only to get off my knees and walk back to being busy, never hearing his response, never taking chance to let him say it.
For every bad thing that you say about yourself God can retaliate with something good! see, he loves you the way you are, as do all us lot!!! we think your great, and none of us mind explaining things, i guess we all need to learn a bit more patience at times instead of trying to explain things in a rush?
If you find yourself thinking negativly about yourself then remind yourself that you wouldnt say those things to someone else like me -P) or a friend, so dont say them over yourself!
I can relate a lot to how you feel about pain helping you, so if you need to talk then pm or whatever, you know where to find me lol! You are such a great person with so much potential hun. Look for another release, hurting yourself in any way is not a good thing, and in the long term its not the best thing
*hugs again*

 

[Mr.Cheese]

But they're what I think is true. There's a lot more that I have a low opinion of my self in, but I didn't put it because the list would go on forever...

Doh!
I forgot to copy where you called yoruself dumb and stupid.
I hate to see girls say those things about themselves.

I know a few girls and I believe you that the list could go on forever cause theirs do too.

Just whenever I see a girl call herself ugly, stupid, or worthless I have to speak up.

 

[Captain_Tripp]

thats what happened 2 me b4,i bang my head in the wall alot though 2.yur not the only 1.gd luck though.