Battling Bipolar

[willmrcd1]

Battling Bipolar
By Tanya Merced
CopyRight 2006
Published by PublishAmerica

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Days are full of great grandeur and I can do anything.
I am pleased with what I see in the mirror before me and confident
I will be able to conquer all things that are before me.
Everything appears to be normal and right for a change.
Although it has been a while since I prayed.
Something is extremely out of place and I cannot focus on one thing.
Seems like my thoughts are moving ahead of me and I can’t keep up.
Sleep no longer is a part of me I don’t recall the last nap I had?
Demons are starting to appear before my eyes.
Look over there its laughing!
My family members are perplexed and try to rationalize my ways.
The grandiose feeling fades away while they medicate and hospitalize me.
God where are you?
Why have you forsaken me?
The lies start to distort the vision the Lord sent from the beginning.
Depression has begun to takes its course and I begin to withdraw.
Inside this broken vessel are feelings of abandonment and shame.
Chained to a bed and longing to be free I beg the Lord to hide me
under the shelter of his wings.
Holding on to his Word a battle takes place amidst this emotional turmoil.
Knowing that God’s refuge is the only place where I can find strength to fight the demons that linger in my head.
It was there in that dark room where my savior comforted me and whispered in my ear.
“I will never forsake you.”
Sent home to face yet another day I discover that this disease isn’t a sign of weakness in faith, but of God’s true love, dedication in my life.

“We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;” 2 Cor. 4:8-9

Prayers:
Lord I thank you that you have given me a sound mind.
I thank you that although I may be hard pressed, despairing, or struck down, the Holy Spirit, will never allow me to be crushed, abandoned, or destroyed. Thank you my Lord for hiding me under the shelter of your wings. In Jesus name, amen.

 

[lmarie23]

thanks for posting this. since i am bipolar myself (though usually on the depressive end, not manic), i can relate. i posted a few poems on the depression board of my experience, if you want to read them here are the links: http://www.christianforums.com/t5269335-new-poem-about-gods-love.html http://www.christianforums.com/t5253751-a-poem-i-wrote.html

Lynne

 

[bytheghost]

I can really relate. I tend to gravitate to the depressive side myself, but in those moments of mania...you have really captured the essence. It is also amazing to see someone who had such similar experience, it is as though many of us have been through that before. It is a sad thing in my experience. God Bless and I pray this moment He helps to bring you clarity about how beautifully you've been made.