Ballard of a Former

[Jack Spartan]

It all started almost a year ago I was a gamer I was obsessed with Video games such as Assassins Creed, Final Fantasy. And was a Brony. One thing I was caught up in were NDE's Near Death Experience. Keep in mind at the time I did know of Jesus's Existence. But never bothered to read the bible and all of that kind of stuff...

Until one day...

I saw the testimony of a woman named Angelica Zambrano Which Scared me so much that I became a nervous wreck. Keep in mind I didn't have much faith nor I didn't know how to trust God or Jesus...

So in the process I cut EVERYTHING OUT! Video Games, Tv, MlP FIM. In an attempt to stop sinning.

Instead of studying the bible I became more obsessed with NDE's and testimony's That I joined a bible study class and a Cairism class. but never bothered with the homework... I Eventually backslidden back into my old habits. Until, Well I became addicted to Hentai, I knew it was wrong but I just couldn't stop myself. After a prayer class I confessed to a teacher and she said it was wrong. Well I remembered everything I learned last time and I decided to cut out everything again but learning my mistakes from last time.

But still I am terrified of god, I prayed to him saying I surrender to him. And I am trying to stop sinning but my past still haunts me by placing intrusive thoughts in my head.

Please help.

 

[orangeness365]

It all started almost a year ago I was a gamer I was obsessed with Video games such as Assassins Creed, Final Fantasy. And was a Brony. One thing I was caught up in were NDE's Near Death Experience. Keep in mind at the time I did know of Jesus's Existence. But never bothered to read the bible and all of that kind of stuff...

Until one day...

I saw the testimony of a woman named Angelica Zambrano Which Scared me so much that I became a nervous wreck. Keep in mind I didn't have much faith nor I didn't know how to trust God or Jesus...

So in the process I cut EVERYTHING OUT! Video Games, Tv, MlP FIM. In an attempt to stop sinning.

Instead of studying the bible I became more obsessed with NDE's and testimony's That I joined a bible study class and a Cairism class. but never bothered with the homework... I Eventually backslidden back into my old habits. Until, Well I became addicted to Hentai, I knew it was wrong but I just couldn't stop myself. After a prayer class I confessed to a teacher and she said it was wrong. Well I remembered everything I learned last time and I decided to cut out everything again but learning my mistakes from last time.

But still I am terrified of god, I prayed to him saying I surrender to him. And I am trying to stop sinning but my past still haunts me by placing intrusive thoughts in my head.

Please help.

It's good that you have tried to stop sinning. However, no one is perfect and all have fallen short of the glory of God Romans 3:9-20. We are to try to not sin, and repent of our sins, but understand that unless you are Jesus Christ you will sin from time to time. That's why we are called to constant repentance. Luke 13:3. Grace isn't to be abused, but it is there to cover our sins. We are saved through grace, through faith Ephesians 2:4-10. We are designed to do good works. What do you do for fun? Is there anything you do for fun that is clean? This may not be in the Bible, but I believe that people need some downtime doing clean activities that recharge their batteries. Maybe you could play videogames designed for children? I don't want to lead you down the wrong path or have you do anything that pricks your conscience, because if you do something that you think is sin, then it is a sin for you. James 4:17. It's just I've started playing video games and got a nintendo wii u and have the games of super mario 3d world and one with kirby and the rainbow curse, and I don't think I'm sinning by playing those games. It's great that you prayed to God and surrendered to him. I've been scared of going to hell when I die, but my family says that as long as I believe the Bible, pray for forgiveness, and try to be a good Christian, that I'll probably going to heaven. I hope that helps. There was a while when I was obsessed with near death experiences as well. It made me hopeful in the afterlife and that I might go to heaven, because it seems to me in most of the stories, they go to a place that seems like heaven. I know not everybody does though. Anyways, I'm not sure what to think about being afraid of God. In the old testament, it is wisdom to be afraid of God Proverbs 9:10, but then in the new Testament it says that perfect love casts out fear 1 John 4:18. I don't know.

 

[Tom Hancock]

It's good that you have tried to stop sinning. However, no one is perfect and all have fallen short of the glory of God Romans 3:9-20. We are to try to not sin, and repent of our sins, but understand that unless you are Jesus Christ you will sin from time to time. That's why we are called to constant repentance. Luke 13:3. Grace isn't to be abused, but it is there to cover our sins. We are saved through grace, through faith Ephesians 2:4-10. We are designed to do good works. What do you do for fun? Is there anything you do for fun that is clean? This may not be in the Bible, but I believe that people need some downtime doing clean activities that recharge their batteries. Maybe you could play videogames designed for children? I don't want to lead you down the wrong path or have you do anything that pricks your conscience, because if you do something that you think is sin, then it is a sin for you. James 4:17. It's just I've started playing video games and got a nintendo wii u and have the games of super mario 3d world and one with kirby and the rainbow curse, and I don't think I'm sinning by playing those games. It's great that you prayed to God and surrendered to him. I've been scared of going to hell when I die, but my family says that as long as I believe the Bible, pray for forgiveness, and try to be a good Christian, that I'll probably going to heaven. I hope that helps. There was a while when I was obsessed with near death experiences as well. It made me hopeful in the afterlife and that I might go to heaven, because it seems to me in most of the stories, they go to a place that seems like heaven. I know not everybody does though. Anyways, I'm not sure what to think about being afraid of God. In the old testament, it is wisdom to be afraid of God Proverbs 9:10, but then in the new Testament it says that perfect love casts out fear 1 John 4:18. I don't know.

I sort of asked the question one time after I listened to that same N.D.E. testimony on this forum and it may be different depending on the genre of christianity but from what I've learned so far is if you worry you may not be going to heaven you are going because you are concerned of your sins and feel like you do not want to to them.