Awkward question about effeminacy

BSharp said:

I don't know where to begin as this is incredibly awkward and embarrassing for me.

Well firstly, I didn't know where to post this so I figured this section was the most appropriate. So here goes nothing. I am a mostly regular, straight guy that has been wearing women's hosiery since about the age of 5. It all started when out of curiosity I tried on my mums' and was hooked ever since. I have no desire to be a woman or engage in any other feminine traits, such as makeup, skirts etc. I don't really fit into any of the usual categories of transsexual, cross dresser, gender identity disorder etc as I just love one item of female clothing. I associate the term "cross dresser" with being dressed up with more than one item of female clothing for the purposes of emulating a female. But perhaps some of you may regard differently.

I basically love hosiery for pretty much the same reasons as females do. Comfort, softness, warmth. I never go out revealing such but I do love the look of it too, especially under a large oversized shirt. Strictly at home.

I have been far too embarrassed to say this to anyone and so have been bottling this up for a long time. I feel that people will think of me as laughable and humiliating. I ask this because of the still strong societal stereotypes about what men should be. And I obviously don't fit into this mould on this one issue.

What I want to know is this a disgrace and humiliation for me as a male? Thanking you for your considered responses.

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BSharp said:

Well thanks at least for addressing me, even if you didn't actually reply to my post. I actual regret posting now on a Christian forum, forgetting that most Christians are social conservatives, and pretty well out of touch with most of Western society nowadays. Things like the man is the head of the home and wives submit to their husband etc.

I know where you are going with that question and I will definitely not answer it except for the age part. I'm a younger guy. And I will not answer the rest because it will bring on a flood of pseudo psychological responses which I don't want.

For eg, if I say that I grew up with an overbearing distant father (which I'm not), then someone will say that I'm using the warmth, comfort and softness of hosiery to make up for that lack in my childhood. In other words, some highly stretched out, far fetched response attempting to link up some deficiency in my childhood with my enjoyment of hosiery. If I say for eg that my mum was an alcoholic, someone will say that I used hosiery to remind me of her. This is all very convoluted and I'm not going to accept any amateur psychology.

It's a really simple question I asked and I'm looking for some responses devoid of anything about my childhood.

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BSharp said:

Yes, I'm sorry I came out a bit abrupt upon responding to my first reply. I'm just a little frustrated that I'm not getting any real dialogue. A couple of people have been supportive but the non supportive posters are just giving me vague, generalised responses and obscure OT quotes. I don't mind if someone is not in agreement with me. I encourage open dialogue. But amateur psycho analysing is not helping me, neither is one vague Biblical quote all the way back in the OT, in the same time when food was categorised as clean and unclean.

If I really want to get technical to get my way around one verse in the OT, there are a whole host of European sites that sell all types of hosiery that are specifically made for either men or unisex. From sheer pantyhose to opaque tights. So that is an easy way out of any OT verse about men's and women's clothing. So why don't I just do that?

Because it costs a lot more and in the end, it's still pantyhose and tights. Regardless of the marketing. Do I believe that people would not look down upon me because I wear hosiery that is actually made for men? No. I might as well just wear women's that I can get locally and cheaply with far more variety.

As I said, non supporters aren't really saying anything to me. It's just making me feel like a freak to be honest.

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BSharp said:

You wear the hose on your face? So you rob banks?? Just kidding!

I'm sorry I am completely unfamiliar with your syndrome. I am just curious as to what sort of personality you have that you state is socially unacceptable? What actually is Asperger's Syndrome?

And thank you for the support and kind words.

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BSharp said:

Yes, something's "wrong", I agree. But I've already explained that. If I was an alternative type of person, a metrosexual, impeccably groomed, having a strong fashion sense, with a love of arts and the like, then many people would say that I'm a bit on the unorthodox, flamboyant side.

But I'm not. I'm in every other way a regular guy that likes simple, hearty meals not too sophisticated, likes a bit of hard rock, doesn't care for fashion and wears basic clothing otherwise, doesn't like art, works in a respectable profession, likes sport, likes barbeques and the like.

I wear something that I have to keep to myself because all of society would laugh or scorn me for. That's what is "wrong". And I would be labelled as gay, effeminate, pansy etc for just this one thing. That is what is "wrong".

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BSharp said:

Thank you for your honest reply. I've highlighted part of your post that I found most revealing. And to be totally truthful, I personally feel that you are not completely accepting of me as you claim. And I don't mean that in a hurtful sense, I'm just saying what I feel.

Because if you truly saw nothing wrong in it for me, then you'd find nothing wrong in it if that were your husband.

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