Anyone else?

[TrinityLives]

Hi

I'm new here and its time I started posting I suppose about some of the things I need prayer or opinions on

I have mentioned that I am a member of the Celebrate Recovery Program ( for hurts and addiction) anyhow Its been 5 month this saturday since I have been sober and I feel good.

I feel that God has helped life my need for addiction and is so working on my anger issues. ANYHOW, I have found myself not wanting to participate in groups anymore and frankly haven't spoken in a group for wow almost 2 months now.

I haven't gone to my church or Celebrate Recovery for a month. I miss worshipping ( especially on sundays and that is going to change ) but I haven't felt the desire , want or need to do anything toward my recovery.


One thing that gets hard for me is I get up early to work and the Celebrate Recovery program is about 40 minutes from my home and I don't get to bed til past 1030 on the nights I go, and have to get up early on friday. I know this shouldnt be an excuse but I tend to get lazy about going thinking about how tired I will be on friday. I suppose I should be praying for the Lord to energize me on fridays!



Anyhow, I was curious anyone else going or have gone through this?
I know I am not "cured" but I so want this to be an event that is over and I know that doesn't happen either.
I am just confused, I don't want recovery to "define" me.
Anyhow hope this makes sense, I do feel so at home when I am in the Lords house be it my church or Celebrate Recovery ( its based at a different church that is why I separate the two)

Any input it greatly appreciated

hugs and prayers

 

[Buttermilk]

Hi

I'm new here and its time I started posting I suppose about some of the things I need prayer or opinions on

Welcome to our little corner

I have mentioned that I am a member of the Celebrate Recovery Program ( for hurts and addiction) anyhow Its been 5 month this saturday since I have been sober and I feel good.

Congratulations and keep up the good work

I feel that God has helped life my need for addiction and is so working on my anger issues. ANYHOW, I have found myself not wanting to participate in groups anymore and frankly haven't spoken in a group for wow almost 2 months now.

I haven't gone to my church or Celebrate Recovery for a month. I miss worshipping ( especially on sundays and that is going to change ) but I haven't felt the desire , want or need to do anything toward my recovery.

Why?

One thing that gets hard for me is I get up early to work and the Celebrate Recovery program is about 40 minutes from my home and I don't get to bed til past 1030 on the nights I go, and have to get up early on friday. I know this shouldnt be an excuse but I tend to get lazy about going thinking about how tired I will be on friday. I suppose I should be praying for the Lord to energize me on fridays!

 

[TrinityLives]

feel that God has helped life my need for addiction and is so working on my anger issues. ANYHOW, I have found myself not wanting to participate in groups anymore and frankly haven't spoken in a group for wow almost 2 months now.

I haven't gone to my church or Celebrate Recovery for a month. I miss worshipping ( especially on sundays and that is going to change ) but I haven't felt the desire , want or need to do anything toward my recovery.

See thats the thing I am searching in myself about... I truly do not understand why

I just clammed up all of a sudden and now don't want to go to group anymore. I love the worship, the message but then I want to be done because I feel I have nothing to say.
I hear quite often that others seem to get "something" from me when I do speak, I never see my worth I suppose.... then I think if everything in my life is going well then whats there to talk about???
I am smarter then that so I'm not sure where the roadblock came from, I'm definitely not shy!



Does this make any sense?

 

[Buttermilk]

Yes, it makes sense, but think of the people who may be missing out (as well as yourself), by your absence from the group.