I am finding myself quite ashamed and embarrassed as I come to you all for a little advice. I come heavily burdened and weak in spirt.
For the past few months I have been struggling with an eating disorder. I know that a few months isnt really a big deal but I know exactly where I will end up if I continue on this path of self destruction and abuse. I've been here before, about # years ago where my life nearly ended. I never thought I would relapse, ever. When I was finished with my treatment every one was so proud of me and so I was. I thanked and praise God everyday for freeing me from my addiction praying never to be there again. But here I am, once again.
I am coming for advice because I feel stuck, I dont really know what to do. I hold a leadership position in my church, working with Jr. high girls, I tell them all the time that they are perfect, they are just the way they were meant to be and I am going to school to be a clinical psychology, more specifically, clinical psychology for women and female adolences struggling with depression, eating disorders and abuse. Kinda ironic, I know. I am open and ready to receive treatment once again but I guess Im not sure who to go to. I go to a large church and there are plenty of women there that I trust, but I cant go back and disappoint them all. I am so ashamed and embarrassed that Im here again. I guess I just dont know where to go from here. Im not asking for advice for recovery, I know all about it, Im just asking if anyone knows of the next step... if you understand what I am saying. Maybe a way to approach someone about it of something. If any one has any advice or encouraging verse, please share it with me.
For the past few months I have been struggling with an eating disorder. I know that a few months isnt really a big deal but I know exactly where I will end up if I continue on this path of self destruction and abuse. I've been here before, about # years ago where my life nearly ended. I never thought I would relapse, ever. When I was finished with my treatment every one was so proud of me and so I was. I thanked and praise God everyday for freeing me from my addiction praying never to be there again. But here I am, once again.
I am coming for advice because I feel stuck, I dont really know what to do. I hold a leadership position in my church, working with Jr. high girls, I tell them all the time that they are perfect, they are just the way they were meant to be and I am going to school to be a clinical psychology, more specifically, clinical psychology for women and female adolences struggling with depression, eating disorders and abuse. Kinda ironic, I know. I am open and ready to receive treatment once again but I guess Im not sure who to go to. I go to a large church and there are plenty of women there that I trust, but I cant go back and disappoint them all. I am so ashamed and embarrassed that Im here again. I guess I just dont know where to go from here. Im not asking for advice for recovery, I know all about it, Im just asking if anyone knows of the next step... if you understand what I am saying. Maybe a way to approach someone about it of something. If any one has any advice or encouraging verse, please share it with me.