angry at God

[argyleman]

I feel so unloved and neglected.
I have never felt God's love and I'm really an emtional wreck but other christians talk about how God makes them feel his love! This drags me down! I can pray and cry out to him but nothing happens! Why does he do this to me? I am so angry at God. There is simply no more trust.
I have been disappointed so often, always when I tried something it never worked.
I am so angry at him I just cannot help.In such moments I feel like freaking out and getting a nervous breakdown. I get so vicious thoughts about cursing God and paying him back. I dont even know if these are my thoughts or not.
Why does God not heal me? I am such a wreck but still he doesn't help me.
I really cannot handle it. When I hear from other christians how God made them feel his love then it hurts me so much. I am jealous, too. I feel like God loves them more than me.
I cannot deal with this. Maybe it's because I have not gotten enough love in real life. I am simply searching for acceptance but I dont feel accepted at all.
Other christians speak about how accepted and loved they feel and I dont. I dont even know God. I have no clue how he is and how he reacts. I have no clue wether he loves me or wether he is up there and really angry cause I am angry at him. I dont know anything. I have searched him at conferences and I have always been disappointed. I have tried so much stuff and it never worked but other christians know him and they hear his voice and I dont have anything.
I really dont know how to go on.Yesterday I felt really terrible it scared me I even felt suicidal.Would God have allowed me to hurt myself? I dont think he would have done anything.
This is not how I imagine a loving father.I really try to get over this but I am so disappointed with God, I dont trust him anymore. I have no more faith that he would help me. He allows me to suffer and does not help me.

 

[VivDaGurl]

I dont even know God. I have no clue how he is and how he reacts. I have no clue wether he loves me or wether he is up there and really angry cause I am angry at him.

Why don't you get to know God first? Start reading the Bible to get to know the Lord. Go to the four gospels - John, Mark, Luke and Matthew. Start communicating with God through . Establish a good relationship with God and He will start to bless you. You'll see a difference in your life.

Difficulties are the times God put in you so that you can experience His goodness when He shower them upon you. God is good and God never leave anybody alone. Read the book of Job in this matter.

 

[argyleman]

Do you think God still loves me even though I was so angry at him?
I mean is it possible for God to abandon somebody and then not love this person anymore?
But I dont understand why he didnt reply.I felt like God doesn't care about me and when I was so desparate and finally asked him wether he loves me and there was no reply I felt like that's it. I felt like this has to be the proof that he doesn't love me anymore. I thought that it's clear now that he has abandoned me.

 

[Serenity Now!]

I think I know what you are going through. I'm so sorry you are experiencing this anger in your life.


I remember going through a period of depression and anger in my life. My mother took me to a ladies church conference. The featured speaker was a woman who had a mere "bout" with depression. One night she felt so bad, she just kneeled down on the floor and asked the Lord to heal her and make her feel better. And you know what? He did! Just like that, in a snap of a finger.

I was so angry at this lady for the simpleness of it all. I was angry at God for healing her so quick and filling her up. So, why didn't he answer my prayers? Wasn't I good enough?

I can't tell you how I managed, but I somehow got through that period of my life. I didn't feel the presence of God, but I know I had a lot of people praying for me. So, I'm sure it was God who got me out of that.

I would suggest going to see a compassionat pastor and talking with him. I know I have a great one that I go to when I start with all of the stressing, depression and anger. Also, reading the Bible. Search for verses on Peace. Pray about it, and ask The Lord to send his Holy Spirit in you to fill you up with Peace.

I know you feel anger and probably hopeless. But, God does want you as his child. Even if you are angry with him. All of the heavens will rejoice when you see that and submit to him. Just like the parable of the lost coin. God cares so much for you, he will abandon the other 99 sheep to go after you! That's how important you are.

I'll be praying for you!

 

[John 15:13]

Do you think God still loves me even though I was so angry at him?
I mean is it possible for God to abandon somebody and then not love this person anymore?
But I dont understand why he didnt reply.I felt like God doesn't care about me and when I was so desparate and finally asked him wether he loves me and there was no reply I felt like that's it. I felt like this has to be the proof that he doesn't love me anymore. I thought that it's clear now that he has abandoned me.

I want to help you but it will take time and you will have to be willing to be ministered to. You don't know me. I don't know you. It doesn't matter. Tell me how to talk communicate to you and I will. Be it this forum(where all can see), or be it some other form of talk, I have been in your shoes and can give you answers.

If you're willing.

 

[Bevlina]

Do you think God still loves me even though I was so angry at him?
I mean is it possible for God to abandon somebody and then not love this person anymore?
But I dont understand why he didnt reply.I felt like God doesn't care about me and when I was so desparate and finally asked him wether he loves me and there was no reply I felt like that's it. I felt like this has to be the proof that he doesn't love me anymore. I thought that it's clear now that he has abandoned me.

argyle.... God IS Love. Your mind is telling you one thing when God is actually loving you and holding you! Have you ever read the poem "Footprints"?
Do you really expect the Mighty Creator of the Universe to suddenly tell you that He loves you when He has already seen His Son sacrificed for you? When He has told you over and over in the Bible he loves and cares for you?

God never, but never abandons His children argyle. Just relax in his Love because you seem to have become upset about this and there is absolutely nothing to be upset about. While you were there crying to the Lord, He was there in your heart as part of you!
Yes, indeed, we are guided by a Hand we cannot hold. Yes, yes, yes, God loves you more than you could possibly imagine!!

 

[VivDaGurl]

Yes, God still love you and He had paid a very big price to purchase you. Would you spend lots of money to buy something that you don't like? You wouldn't, isn't? He may not reply for variuos reasons, I don't know. One thing you have to understand is that, we have to let Him work the way He works and He has His own timing as well. Sometimes, He doesn't answer our request could be because what we've ask may be selfish and doesn't bring glory to God. Or what you think is best for you will not do you any good in the future? He is the Author and Finisher of your life. He knows what is ahead of you and know what is best for you. He will never give you any false hopes. (Jeremiah 29:11)

Let's put it this way...should you have a child yourself. And, your child told you that he wants to go to the deep end of the swimming pool because he knows he can swim and he has the confidence that he will make it through. You as a father to this child know truly that it's very dangerous and this child of yours can only swim at the shallow end. Would you grant his request? Think about it...

May I suggest you to read up Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warrens?

 

[madison1101]

I have had many episodes of anger toward God. God is big enough to handle it. Since He is love, He can do nothing but love us. It is not possible for Him not to love you.

Pray and tell God how you really feel. Ask Him to heal the hurts that triggered your anger in the first place. Whine, cry, rant, rave, shout. I have done all of that. And what is so neat is that after I have done , right there on my knees, I have calmed down and He healed me of the bitterness.

He loves you, and will never leave you nor forsake you.

Trish

 

[livin4thebigman]

argyleman - you asked if God can still love someone that has been so angry with him. I just want to remind you that Paul used to go "door to door" to hunt Christians and then kill them. This man, for the most part, single-handedly spread the gospel to the Gentiles. God used this man who was (by his own admission) "chief of all sinners" He viewed himself as the worst possible and God did phenomenal things threw this man. He can do amazing things through you, you must let him though.

To be a follower of Christ you cannot life your life for yourself. I can't make any promises about wealth, health, or easy living (actually it will most likely be difficult) however, this is where joy lies, in living for Christ. In America we are all about expediency (I'm assuming you live in the US) Don't expect to have everything figured out and life be flying high in two weeks. It could take years, but I can tell you it's worth it.

God has the best in mind, just as a parent does. A parent may smack a childs hand very hard, even to the point that it makes the child cry, however if this is what it takes to prevent that child from burning himself on the stove, then it is by all means necessary, even if the child can't understand it. It's not about our understanding, it's about God's love.

 

[darketernal]

God loves you unconditionally, and knows you even better then your own mother, no matter how much hatred you oppose to God, you will always be loved by him.