So, a very quick background on me: got mixed up at one point with an occultist, went down a dark path, was saved by God and born again. --will post about that later...but for now...
Today I had an amazing revelation. Ever since being born again, I've been sharing my story with all. About 35 hours ago, I was sharing my story with an atheist 'friend'. After hearing my story, he sent me many blasphemous texts, and a distinct pain - the same pain I would get when in the presence of my occultist ex-friend - formed along the left side of my neck. I continued to engage him with my words but to no avail.
First I brushed it off, attributing it to lack of sleep. I woke up today with the pain still there. Even worse than the physical pain (which wasn't all that intense but persistent) was how I felt...I felt similar to how I felt before I was born again...low energy levels, lack of patience, depression, the inability to genuinely smile or laugh...I prayed to God many times to wash through me and help me. But the pain and my lackluster disposition remained.
I never doubted God, but I was utterly confused as to why this was happening.
Well, about two hours ago I deleted my ex-friend's texts. Instantly (!!!!!) the pain subsided and I felt good again!!! Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. God allowed the pain to stay so He could remove it at the exact right moment so that I could LEARN. I realized that what this 'friend' was doing was pure evil. He had no honesty - intellectually or emotionally - had no care about investigating what I know, and his sole intention was to toy with me. Basically, a complete lack of empathy. Before I was born again, I used to never label things as evil, everything existed in hazy shades of gray, but I have learned that a complete lack of empathy --the ability to see through the eyes of another human -- is real evil, which stems, of course, from pride.
I was attempting to confront real evil with words. That might work with someone on the fence, or with an unbeliever who at least has an open mind and heart. But words are futile against extreme narcissism - which I can now recognize as actual evil - and who am I (??) to deal with real evil??? God removed my pain at the EXACT right moment so I could realize that only He is equipped to deal with real evil, and that PRAYER is my best tool in that battle because my engagement will not only fail to change a narcissist, but it will also mess me up. But I can do my part via prayer.
I was born again about a month ago, and about every few days, God reveals something new to me. I am truly in awe. After my initial rebirth, I realized His undying forgiveness, love, and greatness...and today I experienced His impeccable timing and genius!
That is all for now...the story of my rebirth to come soon.
Peace and GOD BLESS!!!
Today I had an amazing revelation. Ever since being born again, I've been sharing my story with all. About 35 hours ago, I was sharing my story with an atheist 'friend'. After hearing my story, he sent me many blasphemous texts, and a distinct pain - the same pain I would get when in the presence of my occultist ex-friend - formed along the left side of my neck. I continued to engage him with my words but to no avail.
First I brushed it off, attributing it to lack of sleep. I woke up today with the pain still there. Even worse than the physical pain (which wasn't all that intense but persistent) was how I felt...I felt similar to how I felt before I was born again...low energy levels, lack of patience, depression, the inability to genuinely smile or laugh...I prayed to God many times to wash through me and help me. But the pain and my lackluster disposition remained.
I never doubted God, but I was utterly confused as to why this was happening.
Well, about two hours ago I deleted my ex-friend's texts. Instantly (!!!!!) the pain subsided and I felt good again!!! Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. God allowed the pain to stay so He could remove it at the exact right moment so that I could LEARN. I realized that what this 'friend' was doing was pure evil. He had no honesty - intellectually or emotionally - had no care about investigating what I know, and his sole intention was to toy with me. Basically, a complete lack of empathy. Before I was born again, I used to never label things as evil, everything existed in hazy shades of gray, but I have learned that a complete lack of empathy --the ability to see through the eyes of another human -- is real evil, which stems, of course, from pride.
I was attempting to confront real evil with words. That might work with someone on the fence, or with an unbeliever who at least has an open mind and heart. But words are futile against extreme narcissism - which I can now recognize as actual evil - and who am I (??) to deal with real evil??? God removed my pain at the EXACT right moment so I could realize that only He is equipped to deal with real evil, and that PRAYER is my best tool in that battle because my engagement will not only fail to change a narcissist, but it will also mess me up. But I can do my part via prayer.
I was born again about a month ago, and about every few days, God reveals something new to me. I am truly in awe. After my initial rebirth, I realized His undying forgiveness, love, and greatness...and today I experienced His impeccable timing and genius!
That is all for now...the story of my rebirth to come soon.
Peace and GOD BLESS!!!
