This is something I have been questioning since I was small. I supposedly got saved at age 6.i remember getting on my knees and begging Jesus to protect me from Satan and then I ran to my parents and told them I was saved. But I've always struggled with doubts since then. Something I have really noticed lately is that Im almost bipolar with my faith. One second (and I do mean second) I believe that I am saved and then the next I start questioning. One second I love the things of God and then the next it's like a switch flips and I either feel uncomfortable or against the things of God. But when I feel uncomfortable or against theres still something deep inside that wants to love Jesus, there's something inside that feels like it's dying.
So my question is why do i have the sudden random hard heartedness? Am I really saved? I know ultimately only God knows that. I also get worried that I just acknowledge facts and not actually trust in them with saving faith.
So my question is why do i have the sudden random hard heartedness? Am I really saved? I know ultimately only God knows that. I also get worried that I just acknowledge facts and not actually trust in them with saving faith.