You know i never found my self so unpopular and so alone as I thought any ways, God was always there, as when I started to walk the path God laid out. i ran from God for most my life, but I was saved at 6 over 30 years ago.
While I was running from God I had lots of friends maybe 200 or more. I was in a band at one time, people thought I was something, I was a martial artist, I had respect and power in the cult I was apart of and that cult influenced the world. There was no limit on me, and i had lots of people around me, but i new if I was ever weak they would attack me, try to conquer me and forget me. They were not really my friends but liked what i could do for them. i was a good person to know. So in the middle of all these people I was alone. My life was like a movie. i had women sent to my apartment, but I did not part take. I was training to fight. I wanted to be the American Bruce lee. I knew people that could do things like send people to prison for life, did not matter if they were guilty or not. These people wanted me to do them favors, train them, protect them. I knew others who made people disappear. i knew other still who fought in death matches(only happens in movies right, wrong where you think they got the idea). I had guys who record with B. B king ask me to come over and lay down tracks with them, I could have gone into movies my teacher was an actor, and directors studied at or gym. I had all this and I was nothing. i had no friends. i had people all around me, but know one cared if i lived or die, it was what i could do for them. That is how the world works.
I lost it all Lost my 5500 a month job i had at 22, and this was back in 99, that was a bit of money. Lost everything was homeless. i thought for the longest time God did that to me to call me back to him. Now i know it was not God. God said you think your so powerful fight evil on your own. It wiped me out. i could not stand against powers and principalities on my own. Evil wiped me out because i was running so far from God. No one was around, but God.
things did not get better until I ran from God once again, but I missed Him so I came back. Then once again i started losing friends. I don't have nearly as many as I once had, there are those who want me to just be part of this world. I could have it all again.
I gave up my life, I had many dreams, gave all them up to answer God's call of ministry, and what did I get for it? A life of people hating me, a life of people hurting me, there is no thanks, i see no fruit I produced if any. i understand God wants it this way, he doesn't want me to know. I will be in debt for the rest of my life it looks like when I finish school. I get encouragement from time to time like today some kind words were said to me. It like a man in a desert getting a drop of water.
I will struggle the rest of my life as a slave of God, I have already lost my life in this world. But I have found true life.
As Christians there seems to be a lack of fellowship, why do people join a cult? Because they are looking for family. The early church would be consider a cult today. Its true. Do you know the early church in Israel saw Heaven on earth. Everyone came together people gave and sold what they had and no one wanted for anything everyone shared. everyone was family. I am not suggesting selling everything and doing this today. We don't have to, and there is a better way. Love each other, that is the way, be of one mind. This is not the way of the world but of God. We attack each other to much, i a just as guilty as you, people look at how we fight and see no love. They don't want to be a part of that, why, because that is not the way of God.
Jesus said what you do to the least of my brothers you do it to Me. What if we kept that in mind when we spoke to each other?
I am aware there are those who claim to be Christians and are not, they are like yeast in bread with in the church. What do we do Love them. If you love them they will hate you and leave on their own you need not lift a figure, or if God calls them they will break and repent, either way God's will will be done.
God gave judgement for us to know a persons heart. They are there for us to use. the problem comes when we make personal judgement which are not God's and make our self out to be God(the judge).
I know Christians will united in this country when we start having our heads cut of for speaking the Name Jesus. Is that what its going to take?
Will you love? Are you your brothers Keeper? Or will you give cains answer?
The world is dying for water. Jesus is that water, but we are not spreading it around among ourselves, how can we spread it around no believers. I am just as guilty as you. So why do i say it? Because we should all help each other. Help each other to Love. I need God's help to love, i need your help to Love, and You need God's help to Love, and you need the Help of your Brothers and Sisters to Love.
Remove the log from your own eye before trying to remove it from your brother. If we do not remove our fight among ourselves How can we be a light to unbelievers.
James said we must be quick to listen and slow to speak, slow to anger because human anger does not serve God. This is where I am starting. won't you join me. Start listening, thinking, feeling before you speak. Be slow to anger and do not speak with it. James said the tongue is a fire that can burn down a forest set on fire by hell its self. if we are to be a light to the world we must control our own tongue. i am just as guilty as you, but won't you take this step with me to follow God. this is the will of God its in James, that we listen, are slow to speak think, feel before we speak, do not speak out of anger tame the tongue. If your wondering the first step to follow God this is it, read it for yourselves. That is if you are saved, if your not the first step is to get saved.
Peace and Love
blu
While I was running from God I had lots of friends maybe 200 or more. I was in a band at one time, people thought I was something, I was a martial artist, I had respect and power in the cult I was apart of and that cult influenced the world. There was no limit on me, and i had lots of people around me, but i new if I was ever weak they would attack me, try to conquer me and forget me. They were not really my friends but liked what i could do for them. i was a good person to know. So in the middle of all these people I was alone. My life was like a movie. i had women sent to my apartment, but I did not part take. I was training to fight. I wanted to be the American Bruce lee. I knew people that could do things like send people to prison for life, did not matter if they were guilty or not. These people wanted me to do them favors, train them, protect them. I knew others who made people disappear. i knew other still who fought in death matches(only happens in movies right, wrong where you think they got the idea). I had guys who record with B. B king ask me to come over and lay down tracks with them, I could have gone into movies my teacher was an actor, and directors studied at or gym. I had all this and I was nothing. i had no friends. i had people all around me, but know one cared if i lived or die, it was what i could do for them. That is how the world works.
I lost it all Lost my 5500 a month job i had at 22, and this was back in 99, that was a bit of money. Lost everything was homeless. i thought for the longest time God did that to me to call me back to him. Now i know it was not God. God said you think your so powerful fight evil on your own. It wiped me out. i could not stand against powers and principalities on my own. Evil wiped me out because i was running so far from God. No one was around, but God.
things did not get better until I ran from God once again, but I missed Him so I came back. Then once again i started losing friends. I don't have nearly as many as I once had, there are those who want me to just be part of this world. I could have it all again.
I gave up my life, I had many dreams, gave all them up to answer God's call of ministry, and what did I get for it? A life of people hating me, a life of people hurting me, there is no thanks, i see no fruit I produced if any. i understand God wants it this way, he doesn't want me to know. I will be in debt for the rest of my life it looks like when I finish school. I get encouragement from time to time like today some kind words were said to me. It like a man in a desert getting a drop of water.
I will struggle the rest of my life as a slave of God, I have already lost my life in this world. But I have found true life.
As Christians there seems to be a lack of fellowship, why do people join a cult? Because they are looking for family. The early church would be consider a cult today. Its true. Do you know the early church in Israel saw Heaven on earth. Everyone came together people gave and sold what they had and no one wanted for anything everyone shared. everyone was family. I am not suggesting selling everything and doing this today. We don't have to, and there is a better way. Love each other, that is the way, be of one mind. This is not the way of the world but of God. We attack each other to much, i a just as guilty as you, people look at how we fight and see no love. They don't want to be a part of that, why, because that is not the way of God.
Jesus said what you do to the least of my brothers you do it to Me. What if we kept that in mind when we spoke to each other?
I am aware there are those who claim to be Christians and are not, they are like yeast in bread with in the church. What do we do Love them. If you love them they will hate you and leave on their own you need not lift a figure, or if God calls them they will break and repent, either way God's will will be done.
God gave judgement for us to know a persons heart. They are there for us to use. the problem comes when we make personal judgement which are not God's and make our self out to be God(the judge).
I know Christians will united in this country when we start having our heads cut of for speaking the Name Jesus. Is that what its going to take?
Will you love? Are you your brothers Keeper? Or will you give cains answer?
The world is dying for water. Jesus is that water, but we are not spreading it around among ourselves, how can we spread it around no believers. I am just as guilty as you. So why do i say it? Because we should all help each other. Help each other to Love. I need God's help to love, i need your help to Love, and You need God's help to Love, and you need the Help of your Brothers and Sisters to Love.
Remove the log from your own eye before trying to remove it from your brother. If we do not remove our fight among ourselves How can we be a light to unbelievers.
James said we must be quick to listen and slow to speak, slow to anger because human anger does not serve God. This is where I am starting. won't you join me. Start listening, thinking, feeling before you speak. Be slow to anger and do not speak with it. James said the tongue is a fire that can burn down a forest set on fire by hell its self. if we are to be a light to the world we must control our own tongue. i am just as guilty as you, but won't you take this step with me to follow God. this is the will of God its in James, that we listen, are slow to speak think, feel before we speak, do not speak out of anger tame the tongue. If your wondering the first step to follow God this is it, read it for yourselves. That is if you are saved, if your not the first step is to get saved.
Peace and Love
blu
