I'm so lonely. I feel like such a baby... I feel so weak somehow. Maybe I should feel this way. I keep wanting to just reach out to someone...to ask for help...but I always hold back. I don't want to be alone anymore. I would like someone by my side....but, it seems like I'm going to be alone...for a long long long time... Sometimes...I just feel like going crazy...then others times, I have to tell myself to be good...to follow my "conscious." I don't want to feel alone anymore...I want my confidence back...or what little I had. This sounds so pathetic I know...but, I'm finally breaking down I guess...finally submitting myself to God...asking for His help...realizing that I'm His child and it's OK to feel small...or weak.
