Well I started drinking alcoholically at the age of 12 leaving Christian school to public school really shook me up and I escaped in the bottle. I had four years sober at six months I had a powerful born again experiance not really cause of AA but inspite of. I stayed in AA and really didn't grow as a Christian and relapsed after four years. I was very mad at God that I had schizophrenia so I drank again. Four years of grace. I've been going to AA for the last three years and really not growing as a Christian. Insanity doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results so AA doesn't work for me. I bought a book on Spiritual warfare and that is helping. I have a Christian family but know Christian friends. I'm on disability cause of my mental illness so I have a lot of spare time I can use to study the Bible go to Bible study and Church so that's my new plan. I've quit gambling opiates porn smoking but alcohol and benzo's tapering I really struggle with.