Here's a quick summary of the situation. Well I'll try to make it quick.
My husband and I separated 2 1/2 years ago because of him committing adultery multiple times, and I emotionally cheated on him. We separated and then I moved in with my friend. While there I met a guy, and him and I started dating, and he knew of the situation between my husband and I. My friend and I stopped being friends for reasons, and my husband said my bf & I could move back into the house. Insane situation I know.
Anyway my bf was abusive (physically & mentally), an alcoholic, and needs anger management. I broke up with my bf finally, and he's in jail. So during all this I kept feeling that obviously this is absolutely wrong, and could feel God tugging at me.
So about 2 or 3 months ago I've heavily started seeking God again. Praying, reading his word, turning back to him, and trying to get back where I should be. My husband had broken up with his gf, and was an emotional wreck because of that, and said he needed a friend. So I was there and have talked to him. He then started talking to me, and spending more time around me and long story short gave me false hope that him and I could actually get it together and work on having a marriage with our family back together. I had always said I would NEVER get back with him unless it was a miracle of God (ironic?). Anyway, he then goes out and has sex with some female he met online. I'm hurt, confused, and emotionally in turmoil. I'm wondering what in the world is going on...and he's basically saying well we aren't together but I told him he made me feel used, and that he was selfish and a dog for that one. He disagrees.
I don't know what to do. I didn't think I still had love for him, but apparently do. So I'm just praying and seeking the Lord. I've now distanced myself emotionally, but still hurt. So prayer I definitely need, and advice or scripture encouragement would be nice.
This is honestly the ultra short edition of my situation.
My husband and I separated 2 1/2 years ago because of him committing adultery multiple times, and I emotionally cheated on him. We separated and then I moved in with my friend. While there I met a guy, and him and I started dating, and he knew of the situation between my husband and I. My friend and I stopped being friends for reasons, and my husband said my bf & I could move back into the house. Insane situation I know.
Anyway my bf was abusive (physically & mentally), an alcoholic, and needs anger management. I broke up with my bf finally, and he's in jail. So during all this I kept feeling that obviously this is absolutely wrong, and could feel God tugging at me.
So about 2 or 3 months ago I've heavily started seeking God again. Praying, reading his word, turning back to him, and trying to get back where I should be. My husband had broken up with his gf, and was an emotional wreck because of that, and said he needed a friend. So I was there and have talked to him. He then started talking to me, and spending more time around me and long story short gave me false hope that him and I could actually get it together and work on having a marriage with our family back together. I had always said I would NEVER get back with him unless it was a miracle of God (ironic?). Anyway, he then goes out and has sex with some female he met online. I'm hurt, confused, and emotionally in turmoil. I'm wondering what in the world is going on...and he's basically saying well we aren't together but I told him he made me feel used, and that he was selfish and a dog for that one. He disagrees.
I don't know what to do. I didn't think I still had love for him, but apparently do. So I'm just praying and seeking the Lord. I've now distanced myself emotionally, but still hurt. So prayer I definitely need, and advice or scripture encouragement would be nice.
This is honestly the ultra short edition of my situation.