Add to my prayer

[Boomygrrl]

Hi, I'm boomygrrl. Some of you probably have read my threads. I hope you know that I am a sincere seeker. I really want to believe what is true...just not sure what is true. I want to believe in God, if there is one. I want to not believe in God, if there isn't one. I want to believe in the right God or gods.
If God exists, I want to know what God wants from me. Does God want me to be a Christian, a Jew, a Muslim, or some non-Abrahamic religion? Does God just want me to be a loving person to others? Does God want me to go to church, to synagogue, a mosque, etc? Prayer...I am more than happy to pray. I do so, in fact, almost everyday...sometimes several times a day.

Why? Because I used to believe and there's a part of me that wants to believe again.

Here's what I'm starting to conclude. After years and years of searching, reading, praying, attending church, talking to others, basically beating my head against a wall, I have concluded that it's God's turn to contact me. I have reached an impasse.

No matter how hard I try to connect to God (whatever is out there), the more distant I feel.

Frankly, I'm tired of begging. I'm tired of digging myself into a deeper hole of doubt.

So, here's my prayer. I ask that you add to my prayer...much like a prayer circle.
I do not want you to critique my prayer. If you find something wrong with it, PM me. I truly want to reach God. I know of no other way at this moment than to just wait and see what God decides to do. Of course, that is, if there is a God. Emotionally, I want one to exist. But logically, I do not believe.

So, I am going to post my prayer on the next page of this thread, so that it can stand alone...without the explanation, so that the prayer circle can start.

Thanks in advance,

Boomygrrl

 

[Boomygrrl]

Dear God,

I don't know what to say anymore. I feel like I've said all that I can. I feel that I have read all that I can. I feel that I have reached out to you as much as humanly possible. I feel guilty, because sometimes I just want to give up.
God, I want to believe in you, but I need you to "touch" me in whatever way you know will work. I trust that if you are truly God, you would know me better than I know myself. I don't know what it will take, but you do, right?
So, please God. I submit myself to your mercy. I do not totally buy into your existence, but I want to. So, God, please help me with this. Please, also, help me to get to know you, once I do believe in your existence...at least, to the extent that you want me to know you (how to pray, how to worship if you find that necessary, what scriptures or holy book to read, what experiences I can have to connect with you, etc.).

Thank you God.

Amen.

 

[rocklife]

praying for you

 

[eoj]

Hi, I'm boomygrrl. Some of you probably have read my threads. I hope you know that I am a sincere seeker. I really want to believe what is true...just not sure what is true. I want to believe in God, if there is one. I want to not believe in God, if there isn't one. I want to believe in the right God or gods.
If God exists, I want to know what God wants from me. Does God want me to be a Christian, a Jew, a Muslim, or some non-Abrahamic religion? Does God just want me to be a loving person to others? Does God want me to go to church, to synagogue, a mosque, etc? Prayer...I am more than happy to pray. I do so, in fact, almost everyday...sometimes several times a day.

Why? Because I used to believe and there's a part of me that wants to believe again.

Here's what I'm starting to conclude. After years and years of searching, reading, praying, attending church, talking to others, basically beating my head against a wall, I have concluded that it's God's turn to contact me. I have reached an impasse.

No matter how hard I try to connect to God (whatever is out there), the more distant I feel.

Frankly, I'm tired of begging. I'm tired of digging myself into a deeper hole of doubt.

So, here's my prayer. I ask that you add to my prayer...much like a prayer circle.
I do not want you to critique my prayer. If you find something wrong with it, PM me. I truly want to reach God. I know of no other way at this moment than to just wait and see what God decides to do. Of course, that is, if there is a God. Emotionally, I want one to exist. But logically, I do not believe.

So, I am going to post my prayer on the next page of this thread, so that it can stand alone...without the explanation, so that the prayer circle can start.

Thanks in advance,

Boomygrrl

Father,

I stretch out my hand and ask you Lord to instill your spirit of PEACE, JOY and BELIEF into our sister. I seal her in your love and in your light! Thank you Lord. sending you some hugs and love my sister. I love you in Christ, but more importantly Jesus Christ wants you to know and feel inside how much He loves you. Kneel to him in prayer and ask to receive His spirit. I will be uplifting your precious soul as you do so. May the peace, joy and unspeakable love of the One and only true living God flow from the inside and out. God is love, and all who come to Him will serve and love Him as God, Saviour and creator of this entire universe. Tonight I STAND with you my friend.

God bless you

EOJ {you have a friend in Jesus!)

 

[heron]

Hi again, Boomygirl--

Something that helped me out of a similar slump...

I used to approach prayer as a wish, a meek begging, with an expectation that God wouldn't answer if my request was selfish or unwise, or if my heart was in the wrong place, or if I had sin blocking... that He would use a very complicated screening process.

Things changed when I listened to the logic of some teachers that believed in standing firm on His promises. That sounds so simple, but it meant taking God at His word. The church teaches the legalities of prayer, but Jesus says keep knocking, and it will be answered. He says to speak to the mountain, and it will move.

These concepts sound very arrogant as well as risky. But what I had decided was faith, was not the same thing God had stated was faith. I thought that loyalty and respect were enough. But God wanted me involved in the kingdom.

He wanted me to raise myself to a more authoritative level, where I wasn't afraid to rebuke spirits or request angels be sent to rescue someone. But... but... doesn't that authority get bestowed, assigned, certified by a higher saint, come after we have attained a certain level?

We don't need to wait for someone to approve us in activity in His kingdom. Jesus did that once for all. We are sons of God. We are privvy to some of the strategies. We have His empowerment behind us.

Try this: Find a few verses that contain promises that God has presented to us. Decide that you will believe one of those promises. Read it out loud, deciding that you will depend on God to make His promise true in your situation.

I am not asking you to switch theologies, or follow a name it-claim it evangelist. I am just suggesting to take a bold step toward your heavenly Father, and expect Him to be like a father to you.

Psalm 91:3 For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the deadly pestilence....
A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you.

It reminds me of when I was little, and always wanted to mow the lawn. It was fascinating, and it was something that only Dad did. Suddenly my sister asked if she could mow, and I was jealous -- why did she get to mow and I didn't?

The reality was, my Dad would have loved for me to mow the lawn, but I had never asked. I figured this one out much quicker than the spiritual one.... it was probably only a week later that we were on a mowing rotation.

Yes, we ask for things in prayer. But do we really understand God's heart for us when we ask... or do we take on our own assumptions that He wouldn't really help us.
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[Blesss]

Our Beloved God,

Who has blessed the whole earth and all that is in it. I pray that our sister may truely find Your love, for it is the answer to all she seeks. Father may she come to You from the heart and may she find You with open arms, and a heart ready for her. May she come to Jesus as her Savior and Lord. And may You put all things in her life that will lead her to Your Truth and true repentance! In Jesus Name, AMEN!!!!

 

[Dondi]

What heron said!!

Start with something small. Not that God cannot or will not do big things, but "...For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall be much required: and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more.'" - Luke 12:48

"O taste and see that the Lord is good..." - Psalms 34:8

Many people look for God to open up the clouds and show some kind of miraculous sign for all to see. But God works in the details of our lives. Let God work there. Pray for something specific and see what God will do. Then let your faith grow as you trust in Him and see what God will do. But take an active part in God while you are doing it. Lean not to your own understanding.

Faith is an active belief. Because it is a relationship with God. If you feel Him telling you to do something, do it.

 

[ivory]

Dear God,

I don't know what to say anymore. I feel like I've said all that I can. I feel that I have read all that I can. I feel that I have reached out to you as much as humanly possible. I feel guilty, because sometimes I just want to give up.
God, I want to believe in you, but I need you to "touch" me in whatever way you know will work. I trust that if you are truly God, you would know me better than I know myself. I don't know what it will take, but you do, right?
So, please God. I submit myself to your mercy. I do not totally buy into your existence, but I want to. So, God, please help me with this. Please, also, help me to get to know you, once I do believe in your existence...at least, to the extent that you want me to know you (how to pray, how to worship if you find that necessary, what scriptures or holy book to read, what experiences I can have to connect with you, etc.).

Thank you God.

Amen.

God does hear your humble prayers. Wait on the Lord. He will bless you.