Aching trigger

[Taylor43]

Hi i am so sorry if i am complaining, But i am spending my Holidays in a area where my mom passed away also where she molested me. My Uncle lives where it is and in no way does he have part to it. But i am very sad having to leave home. Since mom died i have made many visits abd good times. You would think i would not have to fight it but i am

I have computer access there and i know this site i can acess but right now it is hard and i know where i am going is safe. How can i let myself have peace because my family does not understand me

 

[Amin]

Hi Taylor,
Does the subject have to come up when you visit your family?
You said they don't understand, I was just wondering if it had to be brought up.
I wish i could give you an answer about how to handle your feelings.
Sometimes our feelings want to handle us. I guess try to remember
That feelings never stay in the same place. they move from one to another. I pray that what you feel will be short lived and you can enjoy your Christmas.
I'm sorry for what happened.
I was molested when i was a child by a neighbor. I still remember it, i
guess i look at it as a part of my past, but it wasn't my fault. Wasn't your fault either. Maybe feeling bad about it is the best we can do. I know we;ll never feel good about it
I try and look at it also, like a part of my life i had no control over, at least that situation.
God bless and strengthen you Taylor.
Chuck.

 

[tapero]

Hi i am so sorry if i am complaining, But i am spending my Holidays in a area where my mom passed away also where she molested me. My Uncle lives where it is and in no way does he have part to it. But i am very sad having to leave home. Since mom died i have made many visits abd good times. You would think i would not have to fight it but i am

I have computer access there and i know this site i can acess but right now it is hard and i know where i am going is safe. How can i let myself have peace because my family does not understand me

Aw hon, The only thing I can think of it to know you are understood by God, and take peace in that. I'm glad where you're going is safe. People don't generally understand when they haven't been though similiar things. You need good friends, a counselor, support from others who will listen and understand, but please do take comfort that God understands you. I pray for you that you experience peace that transcends all understanding. May God keep you safe and guide you to comforters and people that will be an encouragement to you. God bless, Tapero

 

[UnitynLove]

I will be praying for you taylor. Amen.

 

[Taylor43]

Aw hon, The only thing I can think of it to know you are understood by God, and take peace in that. I'm glad where you're going is safe. People don't generally understand when they haven't been though similiar things. You need good friends, a counselor, support from others who will listen and understand, but please do take comfort that God understands you. I pray for you that you experience peace that transcends all understanding. May God keep you safe and guide you to comforters and people that will be an encouragement to you. God bless, Tapero

Thankyou i do have a good counsellor and friends here at home. Going to that area does get me more depressed but when i come home i am always glad to. I know God is there for me always i just feel pain inside. I am seeing my counsellor tommrrow and next week when i return.
Love
Taylor

 

[tapero]

I'm praying for you Taylor! God bless you!

 

[Taylor43]

I'm praying for you Taylor! God bless you!

Thankyou i am on my way to where my Uncle lives will post tonight.
Love
Taylor

 

[BigToe]

That you are taking care of yourself by seeing your counselor both before and after the visit is a very smart way of taking care of yourself. I wish more people knew themselves well enough to do that. I really admire that in you.

If you can do things that distract you while you are there, it might help keep your mind off the bad stuff. Or at least not let you dwell on it so much. Have friends you can call and just talk to if you need it. Or take yourself to get a pedicure or something else to treat yourself. You are more than worth it. And if you need to talk to anyone, we're here for you too.

 

[LazeyWinde]

My thoughts and prayers are with you Taylor. I hope it goes well. *hugs*

 

[Taylor43]

That you are taking care of yourself by seeing your counselor both before and after the visit is a very smart way of taking care of yourself. I wish more people knew themselves well enough to do that. I really admire that in you.

If you can do things that distract you while you are there, it might help keep your mind off the bad stuff. Or at least not let you dwell on it so much. Have friends you can call and just talk to if you need it. Or take yourself to get a pedicure or something else to treat yourself. You are more than worth it. And if you need to talk to anyone, we're here for you too.

Thankyou so far the vacation is going good, i am reading a good book, staying intouch with my friends. I am going home on Thurs only a couple more days but it is good that i am not so depressed this time but it is hard still. Thankyou for being here this site is a big help to me when my mind goes back i come on here
Love
Taylor

 

[Godslilgurlalways]

Praying for you

 

[Solaris]

I would pray and turn the matter over to God.

 

[Taylor43]

Thankyou everyone who responded to my post i did have a good holiday out in BC, i hope the next time i have to go to my uncles i can remember the good times but it is hard but it is possible to enjoy my time

 

[ANM29]

Oh sweetie. God knows I can empathize with you right now. A victim of years of sexual abuse/rape.

It is very hard returning to a place where you only knew pain. Your family may not understand, but just know I do..and God does.

It may not be time for you to hang out in that place just yet. It was not until God finished a work inside of me ( that took years ) before I could return to a certain place. I hated when I was there, I would feel sick physically. Take your time, don't rush anything.

Your in my prayers. God heals all wounds in his time.