About me

[Sweet Belle]

I'm 28 years old and I really want to run away to a shelter home and start over my life from there. I want to leave my narcissistic controlling father behind because I'm tired of his abuse. Thanks to him, me and my siblings don't know our self worth or our purpose in life because we were born and taught to serve him and him only. Doing anything for ourselves would lead us to trouble.

My mom was co-dependent so she could never do much for me and my siblings while under my father's control. My mom could never do what she wanted anyway. When she passed away was the day a lot of traumatic events started to happen. My father became handicap and ill. My older brother got locked in prison for a some years and he was the only one other than my father who could drive. My younger brother is in jail for some years due to him standing up against our father. My older sister suffers from pmdd. I lost my job and suffer from ptsd. On top of that our house is slowly falling apart with rats running around the kitchen. My older brother said prison is nicer than living with my father.

Ever since my father became handicap, things have gotten even worse. Now have to put his problem on my shoulders and it is killing me slowly. I don't even know how to be an adult. I never had any emotional support or a shoulder to cry on, so I have no choice but to go to therapy for all of that. I tried being the best I can be to my father and even help him out around the house whenever he couldn't but in the end he would treat me like crap and even calls me out of my name. Whenever I talk about started my own life he always say that people out there would either kill, kidnap beat or rape me.

I feel so bad for my father because I he needs me to look out for him and all of his problems. I want to change my father's ways for me and my siblings so he can live a better life but he pushes me away. I really wish he would believe in Jesus so he can be saved and fight away all these demons that are destroying him. My father needs to know that all of this is killing me spiritually, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Please pray for me.

Sorry for the typos and grammar incorrection.

 

[faroukfarouk]

I'm 28 years old and I really want to run away to a shelter home and start over my life from there. I want to leave my narcissistic controlling father behind because I'm tired of his abuse. Thanks to him, me and my siblings don't know our self worth or our purpose in life because we were born and taught to serve him and him only. Doing anything for ourselves would lead us to trouble.

My mom was co-dependent so she could never do much for me and my siblings while under my father's control. My mom could never do what she wanted anyway. When she passed away was the day a lot of traumatic events started to happen. My father became handicap and ill. My older brother got locked in prison for a some years and he was the only one other than my father who could drive. My younger brother is in jail for some years due to him standing up against our father. My older sister suffers from pmdd. I lost my job and suffer from ptsd. On top of that our house is slowly falling apart with rats running around the kitchen. My older brother said prison is nicer than living with my father.

Ever since my father became handicap, things have gotten even worse. Now have to put his problem on my shoulders and it is killing me slowly. I don't even know how to be an adult. I never had any emotional support or a shoulder to cry on, so I have no choice but to go to therapy for all of that. I tried being the best I can be to my father and even help him out around the house whenever he couldn't but in the end he would treat me like crap and even calls me out of my name. Whenever I talk about started my own life he always say that people out there would either kill, kidnap beat or rape me.

I feel so bad for my father because I he needs me to look out for him and all of his problems. I want to change my father's ways for me and my siblings so he can live a better life but he pushes me away. I really wish he would believe in Jesus so he can be saved and fight away all these demons that are destroying him. My father needs to know that all of this is killing me spiritually, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Please pray for me.

Sorry for the typos and grammar incorrection.

Remember also Hebrews 7.25 speaks of the Lord Jesus 'ever living to make intercession' for those who love Him and trust Him.

 

[Long Island Pilgrim]

I'm 28 years old and I really want to run away to a shelter home and start over my life from there. I want to leave my narcissistic controlling father behind because I'm tired of his abuse. Thanks to him, me and my siblings don't know our self worth or our purpose in life because we were born and taught to serve him and him only. Doing anything for ourselves would lead us to trouble.

My mom was co-dependent so she could never do much for me and my siblings while under my father's control. My mom could never do what she wanted anyway. When she passed away was the day a lot of traumatic events started to happen. My father became handicap and ill. My older brother got locked in prison for a some years and he was the only one other than my father who could drive. My younger brother is in jail for some years due to him standing up against our father. My older sister suffers from pmdd. I lost my job and suffer from ptsd. On top of that our house is slowly falling apart with rats running around the kitchen. My older brother said prison is nicer than living with my father.

Ever since my father became handicap, things have gotten even worse. Now have to put his problem on my shoulders and it is killing me slowly. I don't even know how to be an adult. I never had any emotional support or a shoulder to cry on, so I have no choice but to go to therapy for all of that. I tried being the best I can be to my father and even help him out around the house whenever he couldn't but in the end he would treat me like crap and even calls me out of my name. Whenever I talk about started my own life he always say that people out there would either kill, kidnap beat or rape me.

I feel so bad for my father because I he needs me to look out for him and all of his problems. I want to change my father's ways for me and my siblings so he can live a better life but he pushes me away. I really wish he would believe in Jesus so he can be saved and fight away all these demons that are destroying him. My father needs to know that all of this is killing me spiritually, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Please pray for me.

Sorry for the typos and grammar incorrection.

Hi Sweet Belle,
If you are a Born again Christian Jesus will get you through it even if things seem totally overwhelming. He really will get you through it. He brought me through some very similar crippling family dynamics myself so I totally understand when you say that the circumstances are killing you . If I had not gotten away I truly believe I would have died of some sort of prolonged illness because my health had already been very compromised for years. If you were not Christian then I would say that you have a very hard road ahead based on your own comments. But the Holy Spirit will lead the way and he will bring you out of this whole experience a better and more wise and mature person. Just put all your trust in the Lord and continue to pray all the time.
May God continue to support you through this difficult experience.

 

[Southernscotty]

Praying for you Sister, Remember the Lord is near to all who call upon Him. I pray that God will send His blessed peace into this home and may that light push out all the darkness.

 

[Sweet Belle]

Thank you guys

 

[sunshineforJesus]

Hi and welcome here.

 

[Dynamaniac]

I'm so sorry you're suffering through all of these issues. God has chosen you for times such as these and He will not leave you nor forsake you. He always finishes what he starts. No matter what, remember that you serve a loving Father and by serving your earthly father, you're serving your heavenly Father. I will be praying for you.