A Struggle

[ComesoonmyLORD]

It's Christmas time again. Trying to find that Christmas Spirit. When I sit and ponder my life over the past 6 years (since my Ginger passed) I can't help but shake my head about some things. I remarried about 2 years after she died. Now when I look back I realize it was too soon. That journey ended in divorce in 2011. I've since struggled with this "relationship" thing. Its just wierd, not like when I was young. Back then there were so many dreams, things I wanted to accomplish. Now its more like dodging bullets. Someone that gets along with the kids, doesn't try to take advantage of my financial security, and yes someone who can put up with someone as set in their ways as I am. I've decided to go it alone for now. Take time and just trust in my Lord, focus on my kids, my hobbies, try not to work so much, get in as much hunting as I can with my sons. I've realized that when I leave it all up to "Me" to figure out, I just screw it up! Actually part of me enjoys being alone, my mornings of drinking coffee and talking with Ginger on the porch. I sit and stared at "Our First Christmas" ornament on the tree. I can still hear her voice, feel her hold me, hear her laugh. Now I just need to "follow" my Lord. Be a worker in and for His Kingdom. I just keep remembering that I've been delivered, redeemed. All will be well, just keep Pressing On!

 

[ThyLovingkindness]

You know, it's interesting how we widows/widowers can sometimes stumble along until we get it right. I didn't remarry so soon after losing Bill, but I did manage to get involved in a relationship that was all wrong for me. It was more like an entanglement really, it was off and on for about 2 years... and I extracted myself completely about 5 months ago. Since then, my life has been based on infiltrating it with positive things, such as a) losing weight and keeping it off; b) staying sober; c) avoiding the crazy man I broke up with, even though he's still bugging me; d) steeping myself in church activities such cooking for those in need; and, e) staying physically active, and that includes recently incorporating ballet classes into my regime (I used to dance in my 20's). It hasn't been easy, but it took me years to get over Bill... and I've finally got something to show for it. I'm sure he'd be proud of me.

So, even though some of us make mistakes, let's say we've learned from them, and have a joyous holiday season. With that said, I also decorated a little tree, it's real and cute, and very beautiful. God is good!

Merry Christmas to all, and blessings!

 

[sonyeth]

Its been eight months since my husband died, and the Christmas season really makes me feel sad, its the first Christmas year without him. I'm trying to make my self busy, its also the first time to wrap gifts to all the kids, his nephews & niece whom he gave attention when he is still alive. In this way I know he will be happy if his here with me. I'm very thankful to read messages about all your struggles and continuous endeavor for being a widow/widowers... it gives me information what may be the next......for I really don't know what to do. God Bless us All! Merry Christmas!

 

[*Charis*]

. . . I just need to "follow" my Lord. Be a worker in and for His Kingdom. I just keep remembering that I've been delivered, redeemed. All will be well, just keep Pressing On!

This really seems like a balanced way to think at this point. I was in my thirties when my husband went to be with the Lord. I had our children to focus on, to raise. They are grown now, and blessing me with precious grandchildren... another generation to focus on for the glory of God.

Praying God's comfort and peace guide you always.

 

[brotherlance]

I am wondering how to show a Christian Woman that I am dating that I want to wait for sex after the marraige but still not make her think I'm not sexuall attracted to her. When and how do I show her, or should we discuss it so we know where we stand . I am 70 and still have a strong sex dirve that i keep checked.