I've had many lapses in faith throughout my life, but lately, I've had a struggle in dealing with it.
When I have a lapse of faith, should I try looking at the negative, in order to battle it with the positives, or should I only focus on the positives? I worry that if I have a lapse of faith, too much, in thought, that it'll create a horrible effect on people's faith. A problem I have is that I'm very trenchant, and when I try, I can cut at things too deeply. In other words, I'm worried I may ask myself a question I cannot resolve due to faith.
I think in thought random questions, but don't verbally think them. I just let it swoop over my head, but in the end, I have a feel of doubt.
The doubts I have are basically this:
1. Why must people go to hell, while others go to heaven?
2. What is particularly wrong about homosexuality besides its bodily proportions?
I have more questions, but I'm afraid to ask them internally. Basically, I'm having a faith problem. Within, I always reinforce that Jesus Christ died on the cross to save us from our sins. Also is reinforced that we are born with sin and thus deserve hell for our imperfections, but are saved through Jesus Christ.
However, sometimes, I doubt it. And I worry about that.
Edit:
Also, is the unforgiveable sin (blasphemy against the Holy Spirit), Satanism? Because, I have read the Satanic Bible (I didn't adhere to it, however). During my lapse period of schizophrenia, I thought I was the antiChrist. Did I commit the unforgiveable sin? I'm really confused on this one.
When I have a lapse of faith, should I try looking at the negative, in order to battle it with the positives, or should I only focus on the positives? I worry that if I have a lapse of faith, too much, in thought, that it'll create a horrible effect on people's faith. A problem I have is that I'm very trenchant, and when I try, I can cut at things too deeply. In other words, I'm worried I may ask myself a question I cannot resolve due to faith.
I think in thought random questions, but don't verbally think them. I just let it swoop over my head, but in the end, I have a feel of doubt.
The doubts I have are basically this:
1. Why must people go to hell, while others go to heaven?
2. What is particularly wrong about homosexuality besides its bodily proportions?
I have more questions, but I'm afraid to ask them internally. Basically, I'm having a faith problem. Within, I always reinforce that Jesus Christ died on the cross to save us from our sins. Also is reinforced that we are born with sin and thus deserve hell for our imperfections, but are saved through Jesus Christ.
However, sometimes, I doubt it. And I worry about that.
Edit:
Also, is the unforgiveable sin (blasphemy against the Holy Spirit), Satanism? Because, I have read the Satanic Bible (I didn't adhere to it, however). During my lapse period of schizophrenia, I thought I was the antiChrist. Did I commit the unforgiveable sin? I'm really confused on this one.