- Jul 4, 2021
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Hi everyone,
I know it’s been awhile since I’ve been around in this area,but since then I’ve had lots of anxiety.But also brighter moments where I could overcome them,and not wanting to irritate anyone here,I didn’t post every problem.But these intrusive thoughts thy have brought me so much anxiety have piled up and been constantly pricking me like needles.
And it’s energy draining trying to repress them because they’re condemning scary thoughts (apostasy,blasphemy,atheistic-like statements).
so to mention a few.
1.) So my biggest one is my recurring bully.For those of you who have always been there for me when I have episodes like this,you can already know it’s on falling away.So while i was working my other job I had a complete breakdown over alll the times I’ve ever encountered a theological issue like babies salvation or submission in marriage.I’ve had intrusive thoughts tempting me to apostasy about them in the past and I was scared beyond all senses worried to death if committed apostasy because of all the times I had accepted those thoughts(like I was accepting apostasy,when now I wasn’t) but I’m still scared everyday I’m a condemned apostate and nothing I do can calm that worry in the back of my mind,it’s so terrifying that I worry That I’ve committed the unpardonable sin,scared so badly.Why I’m so worried is the fact that when I faced those theological issues I was bombarded with thoughts like “if this is true or what if this is true then I, commit apostasy” and I had emotional feelings or accepting that terrible sin because but afterwards I’d spend probably 2 weeks scared to death worried I was an apostate.It’s a torturous thought it is.And it worries me.
Then there’s worry that I have to have a side on issues like abortion,I don’t support abortion.and I fully support whatever The Lord Supports.Like on some parts of it like incest or life threatening I agree with giving birth no matter what,But is it wrong to not want anything to do with it at all?.More specifically,is it unbiblical to not want anything to do with it?
Though it’s only two main points I really could use some help on them.
I know it’s been awhile since I’ve been around in this area,but since then I’ve had lots of anxiety.But also brighter moments where I could overcome them,and not wanting to irritate anyone here,I didn’t post every problem.But these intrusive thoughts thy have brought me so much anxiety have piled up and been constantly pricking me like needles.
And it’s energy draining trying to repress them because they’re condemning scary thoughts (apostasy,blasphemy,atheistic-like statements).
so to mention a few.
1.) So my biggest one is my recurring bully.For those of you who have always been there for me when I have episodes like this,you can already know it’s on falling away.So while i was working my other job I had a complete breakdown over alll the times I’ve ever encountered a theological issue like babies salvation or submission in marriage.I’ve had intrusive thoughts tempting me to apostasy about them in the past and I was scared beyond all senses worried to death if committed apostasy because of all the times I had accepted those thoughts(like I was accepting apostasy,when now I wasn’t) but I’m still scared everyday I’m a condemned apostate and nothing I do can calm that worry in the back of my mind,it’s so terrifying that I worry That I’ve committed the unpardonable sin,scared so badly.Why I’m so worried is the fact that when I faced those theological issues I was bombarded with thoughts like “if this is true or what if this is true then I, commit apostasy” and I had emotional feelings or accepting that terrible sin because but afterwards I’d spend probably 2 weeks scared to death worried I was an apostate.It’s a torturous thought it is.And it worries me.
Then there’s worry that I have to have a side on issues like abortion,I don’t support abortion.and I fully support whatever The Lord Supports.Like on some parts of it like incest or life threatening I agree with giving birth no matter what,But is it wrong to not want anything to do with it at all?.More specifically,is it unbiblical to not want anything to do with it?
Though it’s only two main points I really could use some help on them.