A beutiful woman

[Lillen]

It is a woman I've seen on the work were i work. I work as a tailor. This woman is mute and even though she is in her 30ies, she still hides behind a mask and has been outcast her entire life so that she don't fit in except among others in her situation. (with "fitting in" yes i do mean maladaptive)... This acutally reminds me of one an episode of the Anime Series Starzinger, in which the prinsess and her bodyguards were imprissoned in a huge larvea by a female monster. The prinsess and her bodyguards were imprissoned because this female monster wanted to steal the prinsess beauty. The woman i met was the monster. But it ended in such way that the prinsess of the great king planet, told this monster that when she (the prinsess) came to the greate king planet everything would be restored to normal, and this monster would become beautiful. The monster accpeted that, and in the same moment she was turned into a really beautiful butterfly

I believe that something is hiding behind that masquerade. It's up to the lord to save her, But i became curious about her and feel a need pray for her... I don't even know if she has noticed me. But lets assume she has, i stand infront of a choice, To ask her out or to continue to live in celabacy which I before all this decided to do

Now in my age poeple are getting married and people are having children... I hate to admit that i commit adultary in lmy heart since i look at married woman with lust, something that can become my death. I have learnt to back off when the married woman walks under the bonds to her husband. Now i don't believe this woman is married. And i think i need to be patient with her as the Lord will change her to become outwardly as she sees herself (its not up to me to change her).

I cannot help noticing me being very curious on this woman, and as for now, i cannot communicate with her, since she is mute and I don't know signlanguage. It is something about her that makes me wants to get to know her. But I will wait until the chains of darkness is cut off.

Because of the mute spirit (or whatever it is) which makes it impossible for me to communicate with her everyhting is made harder.

I need to be open for Gods way to transform her into the beauty i see within her. And that takes time. It is a dilemma alright

 

[Lillen]

I need to consult God here, Because before now i always believed i would live like Paul, in celebacy. I even asked the doctors to nutter me so that i would be sexless for the sake of the kingdom

And even though there is a smiley face i am dead serious, i asked the doctors to do that: All they did was calling me mad!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7_LSxbNNJg


I asked, which day is it to day, which day is it to day?
And she answered, i don't know, i don't know which day it is today!

So i asked which month, which month are we in?
And she answered i don't know, i don't know which month we are in?

In Marys eyes there is a world, nothing is forbidden there
And i leave everything if she says when.

So i asked which time of year, which time of year we are in
And she answered, it is summertime, it is summertime we are in

In Marys eye there is a world nothing is forbidden there
And i leave everything if she says when!

When i showed her the snow, when i showed her the snow
She answered, the summer is trubblesome, the summer is trubblesome this time of year!

In Marys eyes there is a world nothing is forbidden there
And i leave everything if she says when

 

[mahlalie]

 

[visionary]

You could learn sign language.

 

[Lillen]

I believe that Jesus will heal her from her affliction,and the wounds it took to see her kindergarden brother being so filled with dirt, wickedness and filth, because he turned away from God deciding to take the punishment for his wickedness without knowing how much that hurted our Father in heaven.

But i believe there it is not the end there, God intervened with his ways calling him back from egypt and sodom, In the end the mute spirit both of us has makes us dubbed similar to english movies on french TV.

 

[ImperialPhantom]

I believe that Jesus will heal her from her affliction,and the wounds it took to see her kindergarden brother being so filled with dirt, wickedness and filth, because he turned away from God deciding to take the punishment for his wickedness without knowing how much that hurted our Father in heaven.

But i believe there it is not the end there, God intervened with his ways calling him back from egypt and sodom, In the end the mute spirit both of us has makes us dubbed similar to english movies on french TV.

Whoa whoa whoa... unless it's different in Sweden, HOW can you refer to a 5-year old as being full of dirt, wickedness and filth? The kid barely has the mental capacity to recite the alphabet in order. You gonna tell me a kid that young is evil?

 

[Lillen]

Parhaps you misunderstood me.. it was later in life...