7 Months Tomorrow.

[Samson0423]

Hey All,

I just need to vent, I hope noone minds?.

It'll be 7 months tomorrow that we lost out Sophia to cancer, leaving behind her twin sisten Colleen.

Me and mom aren't doing so good.

We have so many questions for GOD, But not one person can give us any answers that make sense, we always get "God Know's Best" or "In his will".

It's frustrating not being able to talk to God face to face like i can my wife or any other human being.

And if losing our Sophia wasn't bad enough, the rest of our life's are getting worst, I can't find work (Knowing i probly wouldn't be able to hold it). The house we bought last year is falling apart, The truck i bought last year is needing major repairs (Even after making it clear to the sales guy we needed a reliable truck). He even looked my Sophia in the face when she was alive and promised us a safe truck.

I FEEL, like GOD is ignore us, I know that's not true, but it feels like it, everything bad that could happen seems to be happing to us.

We were very faithful, we had FAITH GOD was gonna heal our Sophia, even when the docs said she was dieing, we didn't listen, we didn't make any preperations we JUST BELIEVED she was gonna be healed.

BUT.......She wasn't, My FAITH, hasn't been the same, How do i trust a GOD that would let something like this happen, And then let our live's back slide even farther????.

I have been a born again Christain since 6 years old, I know GOD, and JESUS. I have been through some rough spots in my life, BUT THIS....

I just Don't know????

Thanks for listening, And any prayer would be welcome.

With God's Love, Don

 

[SplendidTree]

My name is Colleen, and I am a twin. This touched my heart.


I am praying for your precious family.

 

[footballmommy]

I am so very sorry. Have you tried reading The Shack? It might be something that you and your mom can even read together and help to reconcile what you are going through. I'm so sorry for your loss!

 

[RuthD]

I am sorry you lost your Sophia. My faith was shaken when my mother was dying of cancer. I cursed God. I know where you are coming from. I wondered how he could let her suffer so horrendously. My faith in God is still shaken since then. But I believe in Jesus Christ and pray to him if that makes sense. I am praying to him for you.

 

[RogerVW]

Don, You have my deepest sympathy and an immediate prayer that God, who knows your pain and suffering, will continue to be with you and to ease your pain and give you peace! I understand your loss, having lost my fiance' three months ago. There are still times I am angry at everything including God. I pray every morning to just make it through the day and to feel God's hand on my shoulder. I think I have made peace with God and can now thank him for the all too short time my fiance' and I got to share. She changed life and brought me to God's doorstep. Yes it does seem like EVERYTHING goes bad all at once. I hope you can remain strong (as you can) and trust in God's plan. I used to ask God to help me understand (why He would take someone so young and loving??) NOW I only ask for peace and to strengthen my faith. I don't think we humans are smart enough to understand God's plan, I know I'm not.
One other thing that may help is to know God made us, and that means getting mad, being sad, numbness and frustrated are part of us. We are far from perfect. I think those raw emotions are there to protect us from the pain that IF we could feel it unfiltered it would surely kill us. God gave us these things so our head and heart would have time to catch up to each other. Just like we have been given loneliness so that we know we are NOT meant to be alone.
Again Don, I am so sorry for your HUGE loss, I hope you will find peace in God's arms.

 

[footballmommy]

Oh Don and Roger - I am so very sorry for the both of you! Wishing you some comfort and some peace during the holidays ahead and both are in my thoughts and prayers.