5 years ago... exactly

[DrAmA_Q33n]

so everyone knows that today was mothers day and if you dont... well it was.

today i was suposed to be happy, right? its mothers day! YEAH!! but i couldnt be happy. exactly 5 years ago, my dad died of cancer. i was only 8 years old. i watched him slowly die for 3 years.

when i was 8, i didnt really understand who God was and now that im older, i have this question hoverong over me...
when my dad died, was he saved? i dont know and that scares me SO bad.

insted of spending mothers day with my mom, i spent it crying and thinking about this question. and now i feel bad because i should have been with my mom.

i should have been helping her and doing things for her because now she has cancer and she just had surgery and i feel really bad now

 

[Nachtjager]

Hey lil' Drama, me here. I had a mixed emotions mother's day as well, since this was my first one since my mother was killed. I had some good times with my wife and nine-year-old daughter, but then my daughter started us thinking how "Maw Maw" wasn't there for the first time and she kept coming back to that all day. We cried off and on all day (all three of us) - it was kinda' a weird day. All I can say is something you already know; none of us has a warranty that says we'll see the sunset this evening. Make the most of the time you have with your mom and be thankful of the few years you had with your father. I don't know why good people die when they do, but I do believe there's a purpose to all of it. Don't feel guilty or bad, it's all part of the process and we all go through it; you're not alone there. Holidays and special occasions always amplify the loss of someone special. As I told my daughter, and myself, what is our life on this spinning orb compared to an eternity in the hereafter? I mean, literally, if we honestly believe that life in Heaven never ends, and we must believe that, then looking back on our lives on Earth is going to seem like remembering a single day, or a single hour. As long and painful as the seperation may seem now, after we are reunited, that seperation will seem amazingly short, I'm certain of that. If I may, and this sounds cheezy, but I also remind myself and my daughter of some wisdom picked up from Lilo and Stitch (yep, Stitch). There's a great bit in the original flick where they explain because Lilo's parents are dead, that their Ohana (family) is smaller, and broken - but, it's still good. It's a deep bit of wisdom in a Disney flick, but man, when I hear Stitch explaining to the alien chick that the family he's befriended "is small and broken, but still good, yeah, still good", crazy as it sounds, that hits home for me (plus, who doesn't like Stitch's voice?). NE way, praying for ya', hug your mom, be there for her, and don't feel guilty, ever, about missing your dad - you'd be abnormal if you didn't. Take care and God bless.

 

[mare61]

My heart goes out to you. Could you try talking to the people that were close to him? They would have a good idea if he believed. I gotta tell you though, I've watched the slow suffering of cancer and I can't imagen someone going through that and not finding time to make peace with their Maker. Our entire family became closer to the Lord due to the cancer.
Blessings, Mare

 

[deb7648]

hi drama

i lost my husband to cancer 6 yrs ago
and my boys were there thru his 3 yr battle
(he passed at home) my kids were 11 and 14
they to questioned if he was saved and i assured
them as much as we prayed together and he prayed
alone iam sure he is in heaven looking
down on them. I will tell you as i did them to pray
for god to let you know your father is safe
and happy both my sons had dreams of there father
one where he was throwing his hat away and
saying i dont need this anymore (he never liked hats
but because of chemo wore one the last year)
i know this will help you please talk to god
and give him your pain he will give you peace
i will be praying for you