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[lonelyandscared]

It has been four weeks now that I have been totally alone and isolated here in the mountains of NC. My wife and I are separated by hundreds of miles as I continue to pray daily for the Lord's much needed hand in what is surely a case of spiritual warfare. My wife is angry and it is my fervent prayer that God can somehow touch her heart and rekindle the love that we shared. I pray that somehow a spark of that love can be rekindled and forgiveness allowed a chance to replace hurts, anger and any needs for vengeance and destruction of all that was provided us. If this is about money and property may such concerns be replaced with trust and hope. I go day to day without the possibility of communication, because she isn't currently receptive. Hour by hour, day by day as I watch the minutes creep by with no clue as to the future I can only pray for a miracle. I pray for the healing of memories of her lifetime, for the letting go of anger, bitterness and wrath, for the total expulsion of the enemy whether the many temptations of the world, lust, avarice, desire for material possessions or whatever the Lord may know to do. I pray for His peace, gudance and blessings upon our lives and a recommittment to Him. Lord, I truly need the shelter and intervention of your Holy Spirit and the intercession of all the hosts of heaven. Jesus,  I need your healing now. Knocking on the door of heaven ..I NEED A MIRACLE. Will you all please pray for US? I truly ask for a bit of your prayer time in this vigil. I need God's help and I need YOUR help. Larry     I want to go home!

 

[Gerry]

May you receive the miracle you seek, and may God grant you the desires of your heart in accordance with His will.

 

[Bruno]

Don't worry about your wife right now. I know it is hard not to think about her, but this time is for you and God. Work on yourself and your relationship with Him. Make the Holy Bible your daily reading and talk to Jesus constantly!!! Let things work themselves out in His timing, not yours.


"God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in His holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." (Hebrews 12:10-11)

 

[GraftMeIn]

Praying for both you and your wife.

 

[carmen]

Praying Larry.

 

[lonelyandscared]

I am trusting in the Lord and doing everything I know to open myself to see His will in this,but after so many blessings and the attainment of all that I had ever dreamed about, it is hard to believe that it could be His will for all that He blessed us with just be thrown away overnight. Too, just being totally alone while my life is hundreds of miles away is so very hard as the hours and minutes of unknowing seems to creep by. I pray, I cry out, I implore God's hand and yet a month of day to day confusion, hurt and longing is so very taxing. My faith is strong in the Lord, but the fear and hurt ever present. I read his word with the great assistance of computer based bible tools for attempting to keep my faith and positive attitude of trust and reliance. I know the enemies hand is actively in this or there would not be so much anger and vengeance making her almost a different person from anyone I have ever known before. IF there was once love how can I just let that go?

 

[lonelyandscared]

Bruno, I hear what you are saying, but I feel so powerless and scared of all that seems to be set into motion. Inevitably it seems the work of attorneys to destroy, so that there is no communication and no knowing. I haven't heard anything in the way of her true feelings, needs, or wants for four weeks now. I love her so much and yet am at the same time have seen only hostility and escalation. None of this makes any sense to me and for the life of me I don't know the whys or the hows. Maybe it is and was all about the money and property, but it seemed so real and we had been so consistently blessed. Even the thought of my sending out hundreds of resumes and contemplating moving to a new city to start over in a lifestyle I don't want is so contrary to who I am and all that I worked for and trusted in for so long. I took holy oaths when we were married and tried hard to keep ourselves rooted in God's word. Yes, there were mistakes, but our God is a loving God and His people are supposed to treasure marriage as the gift it was and be willing to forgive and commit themselves to building up. I don't want to let her go. I don't want to lose all we had together, but know that I alone am powerless. All I CAN do is trust in the Lord, but even in that time of trusting there is so much pain. In my heart I know it's His to handle, but the hurt is so real and the needs and wants so strong. It would even be better to hear that it's all over than to contemplate this hellish limbo of day to day unknowing while having to contemplate a future that I don't want. I was happy and I cannot help but pray that He can still touch her heart and work that miracle. It's not a question of her role versus His, it's merely that of a 52 year old man who has been jerked out of his existence and placed into a foreign land of loss and loneliness for his helpmate and best friend and the incredible pain of ,"how could she do this?" Larry

 

[Evee]

I pray the pain will ease and God's plan will surely be worked out.
I feel so sad for you. I myself wonder why we have to go through all of these things. you will be stronger but it is hard to imagine when the pain is so strong. I will be praying for you. Evee

 

[Blessed-one]

will continue to pray for you, maybe God's working on your wife too.

 

[lonelyandscared]

This day has been so incredibly hard because I want, pray, beg, plead and even tremble for God to touch her and to place love, forgiveness and a desire to rekindle and rebuild into her heart. The anger I had seen on that fatefully horrible and nightmarish night and since was simply not even the same person. It was literally as though the anger and total need for vengeance has consumed her and left her unable to consider her own role. Either that or it was all well planned and orchestrated by a lawyer in advance. But can't God cut through these lawyers and the spirits of anger and sestruction. I am past being at wit's end because after four weeks of hearing absolutely nothing as to what she wants or where this is all headed combined with being so isolated and worried I am earnestly need of God's hand to turn this around soon, because I just can't take much more of this and at 52 the thought of a new city, new job and financial worries can overwhelming. This just can't be of God, but I know he can fix it if that is His will and now I'm at the point of Job asking God why hHe would so bless me only to have it all be stolen away overnight. Larry

 

[Evee]

 Hi, I hope I am not stepping over the line here but as I read your post I feel your loss of material belongings to be the biggest concern.

 I know you love your wife but is she or your material wealth your biggest concern?

 I tell you I have never been rich but I have walked away and left it all only With my clothes and vehicle. It is just stuff and you can get more stuff or maybe God wants you to give up some stuff. Sounds like it could mean too much. I know the hurt is real and I will be praying. Evee

 

[lonelyandscared]

The stuff and property means absolutely nothing, but I cannot help but think that it was a key factor in her ultimate decision and planning. I married her because I loved HER. I still do but it doesn't appear that my love for her or desires for our marriage or relationship have any real value to her. I cn't communicate with her by phone because she hangs up and will not respond to anything by email or U.S. mail so I am totally powerless and she consistently lashes out trying to destroy me in every possible way. I don't understand at all. This simply isn't the person I married or else my reality was certainly not hers. After four weeks of constantly escalating attacks pointed my way, my own personal loneliness being totally isolated here except for Sunday mornings, the very real need to now find a new job and start over, and no apparent desire to reconcile from her it seems that I don't have many options left because I simply cannot keep on deluding myself into thinking after I have been treated worst than ever before by any other person that there is anything I can do besides pray, but even in that it would be very hard to ever go back and trust her because she has consistently tried to destroy me over and over again, changed the locks, and shut all doors. I don't want a divorce. I wanted back the wife I love, but even in that it just doesn't seem that the all too stark reality of it all is leaving me many options. Too, I'm overwhelming disappointed in the church not doing anything to somehow intervene even if it was just for someone to try to talk with her, address the anger, and try to somehow be an agent of peace and reason..not to mention as a reminder of Christian alternatives. I would welcome ANY hope or suggestions..that's why I said that I felt like it would take a miracle. I simply cannot live in this hellish limbo waiting for my "wife" to decide whether she loves me or not. Isn't forgiveness and recognition of one's role in things supposed to be mutual? I don't even understand how anyone that truly loves someone could put them through the pain I have been put through..and there is absolutely no indication that she has even felt a thing. I cried myself sick, literally, for two weeks, had NO food for 5 days, no money, and then came two weeks of major anxiety attacks from living in this state with absolutely no indication of what was in her mind or what her desires were. At some point a man, even a Christian man, has to face the reality and consider that maybe God's will is for me to move on. I would absolutely love for there to be an alternative path, but my Lisa apparently could care less about me or all of the many blessings we had shared. That's one of the things that is most crushing...the apparently reality that it was all one sided and that I was a fool. After a year and a half of working hard to build I have now been cast of as an old shoe that is no longer useful and our last communication was her threat to me that if I didn't sign over the house and property to her that she would do anything to me that she needed to. ...and she has followed through. I wasn't the one that started throwing dishes or went berserk, but, yes, I did say the wrong things after an evening of total humiliation. Now, without a penny left starting over, moving to a new city, building a new career and all the rest means my loss of virtually everything that I held dear..my church, my community, my friends, our farm, and huge legal expenses facing me. Honestly, Evee, I didn't want ANY of this, but I am totally and completely powerless and doing my absolute best to just find a reason to live from one day to the next. Watching the minutes go by day after day after day while pumping out resumes to go where I don't want to go to start a new career I don't want and the HUGE loss of the very one I trusted and valued more than anyone in this world has almost crushed me and allI can do is try to find a way to survive this. I still have my faith, but I surely haven't seen any hope for a spiritual change in the situation and am rapidly running out of options. I would give thanks from the rooftops if there was a break in this, but just don't see or hear any signs of that coming. In fact, most of my Christian friends say it may be that I HAVE to let go. Hope?

 

[Evee]

Goodness I don't want to sound mean but she sounds downright evil.

 Did she help work for this too or did she just marry with evil intentions.

 I myself don't see a future with this person.

 I only know a little but do you have to turn over it all to her.

 I would not trust someone like that.

 You say you were married a year and a half, was this a younger woman older man with money.

 It is hard to see these things when we are in love, but I think maybe she married you for all the wrong reasons.

 I hope i didn't step over the line if I did put me on your ignore list.

  I pray for the pain to ease up and you can function again.  Evee

 

 

[lonelyandscared]

It's now 12:30 and I am wide awake. Listening to the lyrics of Christian music heere on a station sponsored by Billy Graham Ministries somehow only seems to add to the pain. Where is God now. How can I see His healing in all of this. Why such cruelty of finally obtaining my life's dream only to have it all ripped away? I'm truly angry at and hurt by God tonight. Angry, disappointed, hurt, frustrated, and so many more feelings of betrayal that its just like a great, raw gaping wound. Where are you God? Where is your hand? Where is your hope? Where is your peace? I have wanted all my life for a close relation with God and have called out to Him and trusted Him....WHY THIS!? Was even a little happiness too much? I don't want to hear warm and happy Christian songs tonight and even saying that hurts because I want God so much. I've served the Lord and striven to follow His will and His way for so many years and now I just want to scream I feel so abandoned and empty. All I wanted was a little happiness and to be loved and for so many weeks all I have felt is cast off and alone. Jesus where are you now? Now that I really need you. God this hurts SO BAD!!!!!

 

[JourneyFaith]

I pray for you and your wife. But you need to turn her over to the Lord and release this. You cannot change a heart, only He can and only if that person is willing to open their heart to Him. his does not appear to be the case at this time.

Father, we do pray for a miracle, as it is only You who can perform miracles. Lord we ask for a divine appointment to plant seeds of hope and faith to LonelyAndScareds wife. But Lord we also pray for Your protection and love over him. Lord annoint him with Your love, compassion, and peace. Father, do not allow the enemy to place fear, doubt, and anger into our brothers mind. Open doors that will lead to emotional and financial recovery for our brother

In Jesus Name we pray
Amen


Your Brother In Christ

Ken

 

[lonelyandscared]

THANK YOU!
It is hard to witness oneself beginning to fall apart. I don't want the hurt, fear, trembling, anxiety, confusion, distrust or anger! It seems that with each passing day. It just becomes harder and harder to hold on. I am trying my very best to turn this over and somehow let go, but the many fears and concerns seem ever present. I really NEED to know God's love and involvement in this. I do pray constantly and surely God knows of my faith. The isolation surely isn't helping so the words that I receive here are ever so much more important to me. Just knowing that there are those who are helping to lift this up helps.