Marriage...Melancholy and a Choleric personality.
True in my life. I think I've worn a mask of sweetness like a Sanguine and tried the mask of a Choleric and that didn't go over. So, now I am free to be the Melancholy (hearty bread)that is deep, thoughtful, caring of others. The Phlegmatic (rolls baked together) part of me unifies and pulls people together and is peaceful...a mediator.
I think I am comfortable in my skin...so to speak.
It's hard to live with another person, especially when they think and operated differently. It's interesting that you went through a lot of adaptations to make the household dynamics work, and it sounds like he might have stayed the same.
Peace and smooth household life is probably something you value, and you'd continue to give up what you want in order to make that happen. Jesus taught going the second mile, and ministering to others, so it's not just about being malleable.
Susie's bread was rectangular -- rigid corners, tradition, everything must be fair and square. (This can sometimes turn out to be fair
their way, which they assume others set as an ideal.)
Typical french loaf -- aerodynamic shape, goes forward in one direction, more quickly toward one destination. (Actually a loaf can go back and forth, and roll over, lol.) Even though this can appear selfish, these people can speed up decisions and actions, come up with interesting activities for others to jump into, and are really handy to have around with last-ditch child discipline.
"Pull-apart" loaf didn't have a specific shape -- undefined bc it plans on adapting. Intentional malleability, the ability to morph and be changed as people draw from its resource.
Even when we live out our true personalities, there is pain. Life can be a constant battle, even with people we love. Appreciating others' strengths and letting them know can ease the competition. (You would already do that, with that personality.)
I found a small difference between enabling selfishness/competition, and complimenting-- by trying to stay firmly capable with a slight distance. Not separating oneself, but not seeing yourself always scrambling to keep the other people happy. Being a strong person no matter what the others do.
It's great that you're feeling better about the dream and dynamics. I think you already had a good start, and just needed some confirmation. God loves you, even when things aren't humming along peacefully.