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    When will I be normal again?

    Thank you for your encouragement, memoriesbymichelle. Anyway, it has been 2 years 2 months.
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    When will I be normal again?

    Everytime I hear my friends' stories about their vacations/birthday celebrations/family outings and see their happy photos. I just feel so forsaken and forgotten by God and by this world. I have lots of vacation leave, but no trips to plan...I have so much free time after work, but no one to...
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    How many has cancer touched?

    my husband was diagnosed with stage 4 stomach cancer on 12 Sep 2006 and he passed away on 6 Dec 2006...
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    Relapse....

    Thank you all for the encouragement. Sigh... I have gone through many other "firsts" and they are so difficult... and it's sad when some things get easier cos' it means that I am getting used to life without him...
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    Relapse....

    Hi everyone. It's been a long while since I came to this website. Today is Day 160... I thought I was getting better until I went on a trip to Taipei last week. This trip was to have taken place last Oct and it was meant to be our 5th wedding anniversary trip but it never happened cos my husband...
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    What do I do with the pain...

    Today is the 54th day since my husband died. And the pain seems to get worse instead of better... Every day that we are apart means that I am 1 day closer to meeting him in heaven - this is the only thought that keeps me going. I am very tired of leading such a meaningless life. I dislike my...
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    Re-starting work again tomorrow

    Thanks for all your prayers. Starting work again was very difficult... I find it so hard to manage work with missing my husband. On my first day of work, I felt so sad when it was time to go home, because I realised again that my husband would never be able to fetch me home again, and that...
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    Re-starting work again tomorrow

    I am going back to work tomorrow after 2 months of no-pay leave, first to take care of my husband, then to take a rest after the funeral. I am feeling very apprehensive... and tired; I would have been in this job for 10 years in July 07. This is my first job and first posting since graduation...
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    Moving

    Hi faithgoeson, How's your move? Hope that it went smoothly and that you are nicely settled in your new place =)!
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    What do I do with the pain...

    Dear All, Just an update : I managed to tidy our house over the weekend! I have also done up the shelf in our study with momentos of my husband - the gifts we gave each other, our photos, his baptism certificate, our travel souvenirs etc... I also kept his medicines, the last pair of shoes he...
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    Turning the page

    Missinyou, I also remember clearly my husband's last few moments. And how when the doctor told me that he just stopped breathing, how I just wept and hugged him. And the days in the hospital when he was sick - all those difficult moments of suffering and pain, the memories will stay forever...
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    Need Prayer

    Dear JeanR, Thank you for sharing about your daughter. This must be really hard for you. I want to let you know that I just said a prayer for you and Stephanie and this verse came to mind - "For God is not a God of disorder but of peace." (1 Corinthians 14:33). May the God of peace bring...
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    Moving

    faithgoeson, Hope you are all packed! Sounds like a challenging adventure you are having... when you are all settled in your new house, you will be so proud of your achievement! Hope you get all the help you need and may you and your kids enjoy this experience. Way to go!
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    Turning the page

    Missinyou, I am sorry that you had a bad day. It must be heartbreaking to take down the calendar and seeing the doctor's appointments that your wife would never be able to keep. When I tidied my house and saw my husband's left over medication, I felt very pained too. Still I could not bear...
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    What do I do with the pain...

    Thank you all for your advice. The reason why I was anxious to go through his things is because I want to set aside our study as the room to display our memories... I wanted to have a place where I can go to remember him and our happy times together. I guess I have to be more patient and take...
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    What do I do with the pain...

    comesoonmyLORD, Thanks for the encouragement and prayer. And thanks for sharing your experience about packing Ginger's stuff. I have stopped the packing for a while... will resume again hopefully soon. Right now, my whole house is a big mess like my life. But, I do feel better after crying...
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    What do I do with the pain...

    I am trying to pack my husband's things now; my aim is to set aside a shelf in our study room to showcase his favourite things and items that belong to our shared memories. But this process hurts so much... when I saw all his items and realise again that he is never going to use or touch them...
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    I thought I wanted to be alone...

    Missinyou, I understand what you mean about not being prepared... when my husband was sick for 3 months, I kept hoping and praying and believing for the best, yet I also tried to prepare myself for the worse... but like you said, we can never, never be prepared. I can relate to your feelings...
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    I thought I wanted to be alone...

    c1ners, 20 years! Wow - you are surely one amazingly strong woman... I really admire you. You know when I visited my husband at the columbarium, I saw the niche of this couple where the husband died when the wife was 45 years old. And the wife eventually lived till 90 years old - their...
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    I thought I wanted to be alone...

    JeanR, I hope you feel better after crying. I just finished crying too. Actually, I do envy you for having so many more years with your husband. I was always looking forward to the time when I get to celebrate our 10th, 20th etc wedding anniversary... but we only had 5 years of marriage...