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I decided to try and check in with all my old friends in this forum. To be honest the changes really thru me for a loop. When i come on the internet it's really for support and stablity. I got so frustrated with all the changes and I really had no warning. I didn't think the whole thing was...

My anxiety, irritablity, agitation have been off the charts for about a week and half. Went into the doctor today he is making some major adjustments/dosage changes. He says i'm in a manic episode. I've only had one before and it scares me to think of the after depression i went thru. But i...

Wow this is hard to write about and i almost want to pose this question in a non mental health section...perhaps i will do both and see what happens. I've noticed some issues with my 7 year old son. He is only seven so I don't know if this stuff is out of the range of "normal". I don't want to...

I just had to call my pdoc because i know something isn't right. He said he'd see me first thing tomorrow morning. He is the best doc i've ever had. He gives his cell phone to all his patients. Anyways on Wed i was so low my friends were commenting and asking me what was wrong. On Thursday...

I read something that says 85% of people married to a person with bipolar disorder end in divorce. This bothered me at first but I felt like I could beat the odds. But now we are constantly fighting and I'm wondering if my bipolar is to blame. I'm always getting my mood problems thrown in my...

Does anyone know any really good suppliments for hormonal imbalances? I have my bipolar undre control most of the time except for when my hormones throw me into a tizzy. Not to mention other medical problems that are being caused by the hormone imbalance. Between my psych med's and my extreme...

I hate mood swings. But what i hate just as earnestly is hormonal imbalances. My many antidepressants and mood stablizers are not doing their job. I am growing increasingly frustrated with the lability of my mood dispite mulitple combination mixes and dozens of different meds. I feel like i...

I didn't make it thru the holidays. After 9 months. I know it will be okay but needed someone to tell. Also sorry i haven't been around a lot. When i was in recovery I would often get triggered here and was trying not to think about SI. I also had intended to return after I felt I wouldn't...

I have come to an understanding that many struggle during christmas time with their mood disorder. I didn't really experience this until I got a little older. It's not so much bad memories or relationships or anything like that. Now for me it is taking on too much and dare I say a little too...

Stress at work has hit an all time high. Layoffs and pay cuts and all right before christmas. I was not affected directly but my work load has increased (almost double). All these changes, stresses, and turmoil right before the holidays has started to manifest physically. I feel my chest...

Things keep escalating. My functioning is going way down. I suppose this is when people starting thinking about hospitals. I saw my psychiatrist today he agreed i was not doing well. Recently weaned off one med so we will go right back and add it in the mix again. I'm confident that will...

This is my plea Lord, my earnest cry Satan has got me he wants me to die i'm weighed down by it and I'm stuck in bed Entangled with anxiety, depression and dread But I remember and sometimes I hear Your wonderful promises inside my ear I am your child and I am your girl You have the power to...

Just called work. Went home for lunch. Can't go back. I don't think i'm sick but that's what i told them. All i know was I am running myself ragged. I've learned that if I push too hard when my body is giving me signals it always makes things worse. But what are my signals...

I guess i'm rapid cycling now. My anxiety level is straight through the roof. Plus mix in the severe depressive thoughts with it. Also i'm having very vivid anxious dreams that render me exhausted when i wake up. I can't believe this is happening again so soon. What was it one/two weeks ago i...

Okay need a place to be totally honest with where i am at. I am totally struggling with sui thoughts but i'm not going to act. Just the intrusive thoughts that are so bothersome. I know this is my bipolar disorder acting out as well as my self harm addiction. Anyways seeking support and...

Well, today was my "last" day of therapy. I'm going on "maintenance". Which means if I need it she is there. Weird thing is i have huge abandoment issues (or atleast I used to) and it's weird but I'm not freaking out. I am ready to spread my wings and try this on my own. I never thought I...

Definately feel like cutting or self harming in some other way. I've been good, no SI for the past 6 months (after 9 years of it). Please pray i will not succum to temptation after all my hard work and i will find "other ways" to handle my anxiety, and rage.

Fight w/ spouse again. what else is new. Sometimes this life. Really can be too much. Why can't I just have space when i need it. Why do I over committ. Why does he under commit so often leaving me to carry the bag.

Strange feeling lately. Passing sui thoughts. Not worried i will do anything but they are bothersome. Also I'm not hearing voices or anything but i have a strong desire to self harm. Which i haven't done in over 6 months. Also i'm having weird physical symptoms like sore throat that lasted...

Okay I've got my soup of med's and I'm stablized. It's been 4 months without any hang ups. Two years without any major (hospital) episodes. These are my meds: Remeron, Lamictal, Seroquel, Lexapro. I beleive the first two are the ones that are stablizing me. I beleive the Seroquel isn't...