Ashamed to show my face

Hi, I am sorry if my posts are not emanating Catholic stuff these days but I'm beating myself up over something that probably no one else gives a fig about.

I made a joke during a speaking event (low-key stuff, in their Parish Hall) yesterday and while I have been complimented for my sense of humor, I still hate how I did it.

The priest was talking about different religious orders, and when he was on the Benedictine order, one of the bullet points on the slide was that the order likes to "retreat" from the issues of the world.

Here I inserted my 2 cents and I asked in a lighthearted, jovial manner, "Does that mean they like to run away from their problems?" and the priest indicated that this is kind of what it meant and I said something like "Yeah, I tend to run away from my problems" and the priest said (he wasn't impolite when he said this) something like "Well, then the Benedictines are for you." And I said "Ok."

Now, in the past, during my last two formation courses, people have pleasantly laughed when I said things and have told me I'm funny, but I feel so embarrassed about last night. I know, no one will care right? And if they do care, they'll get over it.

However, the next time I step foot in that church and walk up to the front pews to sit, I'm going to be known as the person who made that joke

p.s. it was not totally a joke. I do tend to want to "run away" from my problems.