Hi prayer warriors,
I am in the midst of a difficult trial.
I confronted someone in our church via email about something that I felt needed to be addressed as it had gone on for too long.
Conflict is not my strong suit - I admit to being rather snippy in my tone.
She replied and wasnt too happy.
Long story short: we are going to have some sort of mediation.
I sense that this has been discussed with others in our church and I am being made out to be some sort of hateful person.
This is exactly what I tried to avoid - things getting bigger than they needed to be.
Right now I am not sure what to do.
I have prayed numerous times and feel that a fast might be in order.
I am so tired of being vilified by those who profess to be Christians.
The hardest part is knowing that I had a part to play in this conflict because I didn't speak the truth I love.
I am inclined to minimise my involvement with church till I learn how to speak the truth in love, set boundaries and heal from narc abuse that I have had to endure from a family member.
The whole thing makes me exasperated, discouraged and wonder where God is in all this.
The mediation will happen next month, dv.but I cant help but feel that it will be some sort of inquistion.
I feel like I need a long break from humankind.
My BPD makes relating to others very difficult and even though I do my best to minimise the effects on others there are going to be days like the one I had where I lash out.
Please pray for wisdom for all concerned.
That each person will take ownership of their faults and not just make me the scapegoat.
Also, for me to know what level of involvement to have in church life.
Maybe a break isn't such a bad thing.I need time to heal, and do more therapy so my BPD gets resolved.
Thanks in advance!
I am in the midst of a difficult trial.
I confronted someone in our church via email about something that I felt needed to be addressed as it had gone on for too long.
Conflict is not my strong suit - I admit to being rather snippy in my tone.
She replied and wasnt too happy.
Long story short: we are going to have some sort of mediation.
I sense that this has been discussed with others in our church and I am being made out to be some sort of hateful person.
This is exactly what I tried to avoid - things getting bigger than they needed to be.
Right now I am not sure what to do.
I have prayed numerous times and feel that a fast might be in order.
I am so tired of being vilified by those who profess to be Christians.
The hardest part is knowing that I had a part to play in this conflict because I didn't speak the truth I love.
I am inclined to minimise my involvement with church till I learn how to speak the truth in love, set boundaries and heal from narc abuse that I have had to endure from a family member.
The whole thing makes me exasperated, discouraged and wonder where God is in all this.
The mediation will happen next month, dv.but I cant help but feel that it will be some sort of inquistion.
I feel like I need a long break from humankind.
My BPD makes relating to others very difficult and even though I do my best to minimise the effects on others there are going to be days like the one I had where I lash out.
Please pray for wisdom for all concerned.
That each person will take ownership of their faults and not just make me the scapegoat.
Also, for me to know what level of involvement to have in church life.
Maybe a break isn't such a bad thing.I need time to heal, and do more therapy so my BPD gets resolved.
Thanks in advance!
