- Feb 3, 2025
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Hey folks,
New here and hoping someone has experience with religious ocd/scrupulosity. Let me first say I'm a Christian and my walk with Jesus is pretty good considering I have bad bouts with ocd. I have always had blasephemous thoughts toward God in my head that I obviously don't want but have been able to move forward keeping in mind it's unintentional and it's my ocd brain. I consider myself fortunate that my family is saved and I'm grateful to God for that. However, here is my issue. I have been very close to my pets over the years and I believe it's possible we will see them in heaven. I know the Bible doesnt say either way, I just have faith. Don't wanna dispute that, just have faith. Also, anytime I have a day off I have this little coastal town I enjoy visiting with kayaking, food, etc. Good clean fun. So of course, as I've heard....ocd likes to hijack the things you love most. In my case, it's the dogs and this day trip. So, I'll be moving along my day and my ocd will tell me I'm doing something wrong at my job or I didnt sanitize my hands enough or something silly. I'll try to move along and ignore it but this is the blasphemous thought that follows in my mind. "Dear God, if I don't go re-do this job or re-sanitize my hands, then you don't have the 'b_lls' to keep my pets out of heaven or send them to hell" if I take these day trip". I don't want this thought. I hate it. I'd never in my right mind say such a thing to God. So of course, this leads to compulsions. I go back and clean and re-do jobs because I feel like if I don't the Lord is gonna let these things happen to my pets if I take this day trip. So the compulsions begin. Now, here where I messed up and am in fear and worry. I got so desperate to quit going back on things and doing compulsions that I tried to scare myself into quitting these compulsions like cleaning and going back on things. So i said in my mind, maybe even uttered out loud to God....."that thing about you not having the 'b_lls' to do to my pets if I take this trip..... I do mean it this time if I go back and clean or go back and re-do jobs". So the initial thought was obviously intrusive, but this time it was on purpose but ONLY because I was trying to scare myself into quitting compulsions. I've done this a few times. So now I'm scared to death to take these day trips because I'm scared the Lord is gonna let these awful things happen to my pets. Obviously I've asked Him to forgive me and not allow these things to happen but it doesn't make me feel better about taking these trips. Any advice?
New here and hoping someone has experience with religious ocd/scrupulosity. Let me first say I'm a Christian and my walk with Jesus is pretty good considering I have bad bouts with ocd. I have always had blasephemous thoughts toward God in my head that I obviously don't want but have been able to move forward keeping in mind it's unintentional and it's my ocd brain. I consider myself fortunate that my family is saved and I'm grateful to God for that. However, here is my issue. I have been very close to my pets over the years and I believe it's possible we will see them in heaven. I know the Bible doesnt say either way, I just have faith. Don't wanna dispute that, just have faith. Also, anytime I have a day off I have this little coastal town I enjoy visiting with kayaking, food, etc. Good clean fun. So of course, as I've heard....ocd likes to hijack the things you love most. In my case, it's the dogs and this day trip. So, I'll be moving along my day and my ocd will tell me I'm doing something wrong at my job or I didnt sanitize my hands enough or something silly. I'll try to move along and ignore it but this is the blasphemous thought that follows in my mind. "Dear God, if I don't go re-do this job or re-sanitize my hands, then you don't have the 'b_lls' to keep my pets out of heaven or send them to hell" if I take these day trip". I don't want this thought. I hate it. I'd never in my right mind say such a thing to God. So of course, this leads to compulsions. I go back and clean and re-do jobs because I feel like if I don't the Lord is gonna let these things happen to my pets if I take this day trip. So the compulsions begin. Now, here where I messed up and am in fear and worry. I got so desperate to quit going back on things and doing compulsions that I tried to scare myself into quitting these compulsions like cleaning and going back on things. So i said in my mind, maybe even uttered out loud to God....."that thing about you not having the 'b_lls' to do to my pets if I take this trip..... I do mean it this time if I go back and clean or go back and re-do jobs". So the initial thought was obviously intrusive, but this time it was on purpose but ONLY because I was trying to scare myself into quitting compulsions. I've done this a few times. So now I'm scared to death to take these day trips because I'm scared the Lord is gonna let these awful things happen to my pets. Obviously I've asked Him to forgive me and not allow these things to happen but it doesn't make me feel better about taking these trips. Any advice?
