Have you tried to discern why it is that you are so anxious to understand exactly what you owe Him for, and what you can claim you are owed for your own good works? If we were talking about a marriage based on love (which in fact we are) what do you think such a currency-based accounting would do to a human marriage of husband and wife? Love would find no place in such a scheme. God insists on love with all your heart, mind, soul and strength. And in truth it is only in the reality of such a complete self-gift to God of one's all, that we have any real, authentic, pure love to offer to anyone, including ourselves. When/if we offer the fulness of ourselves to God in love and in obedience to Him who IS TRUTH, we discover an infinite reservoir of love to give to others, including rightfully to ourselves. This is a communion of love, a human participation in the love with which God loves in His inner life of the Holy Trinity.
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