- Feb 24, 2018
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Ok, so I know dreams are kind of an "iffy" area in theology, so keeping that in mind here.
Four years ago, right before Christmas in 2019, I lost my grandmother, whom I was very close to, to a sudden illness, she was 88. That was during a time in my life when I wasn't walking with God, and since she's passed, I've always wondered about whether or not she made it Jesus, one of several things that has troubled me since her death.
Last night, I dreamt that I was back in her and my grandfather's house shortly after they both passed away, and it was empty, sad and lonely. I was offering to stay there until her affairs were settled so no one would break in the house. Then, out of nowhere, my grandmother just showed up and was alive again...
When I asked her where she'd been, she said that she hadn't died, but was only sleeping (and something else that sounded a lot like stuff she used to say, so I knew it was "her" that I was talking to), but she also looked physically different to me even though a lot of her features were the same...she was thinner, younger, more agile and her mind was very, very sharp. She was wearing a housecoat a lot like the ones she wore when I was a child and went and got a cup of coffee out of her kitchen after she said that to me, something she did reliably every morning once she got up.
After this in the dream, my grandmother and I sat in her living room, her on the couch and me on the floor and we just talked about things, cats being one of them (she loved our cats when she was alive). As I sat there and talked with her, I thought to myself that just because I had her with me now and that she'd "come back to life" didn't mean that I'd have her forever and that I was going to lose her eventually, something I frequently reminded myself of when she was alive...and right after that part of the dream, I woke up...
I've been praying to God a lot about my grandmother's eternity, telling Him how awful I would feel if she didn't make it to be with Him because of my failure to be a good witness to her while I did get to go and be with Him, almost as if I'd cheated her out of salvation...but about 2 weeks ago, God impressed it upon me that, how do I know that something I said or did when I was walking very closely with Him in my early days as a Believer before I temporarily fell away from Him didn't find its way into her heart somewhere and that God didn't use it to bring her to Himself in the last days/moments of her life?
My grandmother passed away in the hospital in a very traumatic way that I was witness to when it happened, but before my family had gotten there once we were notified that she'd coded blue, she had died once and the medical team that resuscitated her managed to revive her and she lived for several hours afterward. Having this dream was comforting to a degree, but I just wonder....
Any thoughts?
Four years ago, right before Christmas in 2019, I lost my grandmother, whom I was very close to, to a sudden illness, she was 88. That was during a time in my life when I wasn't walking with God, and since she's passed, I've always wondered about whether or not she made it Jesus, one of several things that has troubled me since her death.
Last night, I dreamt that I was back in her and my grandfather's house shortly after they both passed away, and it was empty, sad and lonely. I was offering to stay there until her affairs were settled so no one would break in the house. Then, out of nowhere, my grandmother just showed up and was alive again...
When I asked her where she'd been, she said that she hadn't died, but was only sleeping (and something else that sounded a lot like stuff she used to say, so I knew it was "her" that I was talking to), but she also looked physically different to me even though a lot of her features were the same...she was thinner, younger, more agile and her mind was very, very sharp. She was wearing a housecoat a lot like the ones she wore when I was a child and went and got a cup of coffee out of her kitchen after she said that to me, something she did reliably every morning once she got up.
After this in the dream, my grandmother and I sat in her living room, her on the couch and me on the floor and we just talked about things, cats being one of them (she loved our cats when she was alive). As I sat there and talked with her, I thought to myself that just because I had her with me now and that she'd "come back to life" didn't mean that I'd have her forever and that I was going to lose her eventually, something I frequently reminded myself of when she was alive...and right after that part of the dream, I woke up...
I've been praying to God a lot about my grandmother's eternity, telling Him how awful I would feel if she didn't make it to be with Him because of my failure to be a good witness to her while I did get to go and be with Him, almost as if I'd cheated her out of salvation...but about 2 weeks ago, God impressed it upon me that, how do I know that something I said or did when I was walking very closely with Him in my early days as a Believer before I temporarily fell away from Him didn't find its way into her heart somewhere and that God didn't use it to bring her to Himself in the last days/moments of her life?
My grandmother passed away in the hospital in a very traumatic way that I was witness to when it happened, but before my family had gotten there once we were notified that she'd coded blue, she had died once and the medical team that resuscitated her managed to revive her and she lived for several hours afterward. Having this dream was comforting to a degree, but I just wonder....
Any thoughts?