- Jan 8, 2021
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I'm making this post as a first time admission that I have a problem with alcohol binge drinking, I feel it's important to admit this to other persons apart from God which I have finally done age 61.
I have been hiding from getting help because I didn't want it, I enjoy partying, but it has been noted by everyone I party with that I get drunk, although I think its the pot calling the kettle black, I have been well known for it all my life.
I have never had to apologize to anyone before about my drinking, but when I embarrass myself and lose respect in the eyes of others it's time to ask for help, do you think God can give me some self control?
I don't actually crave drink, I just like it too much, but I don't drink at all during the week, at weekends at home I have 2 bottles a weekend, and had a dry January last year, which meant a month of going to the pub and only drinking water!! But...it's hard wired into my brain that a party is no fun without drink, but then as the saying goes, I have the first drink and the rest have me, it's hard to break, and hearing people say they all know what I'm like hurts, because I deserve it, I'm told I'm an ambient drunk, but wouldn't it be so much nicer to be described as a moderate social drinker!? I just can't seem to manage it.
During lockdown I haven't had the opportunity to make a show of myself, but now it's being lifted I was like a kid in a sweet shop! But I'm 61! Shouldn't I have grown out of this by now?! What's wrong with me?
Please pray for me, there's only so much I can do without God.
Thank you for listening..
I have been hiding from getting help because I didn't want it, I enjoy partying, but it has been noted by everyone I party with that I get drunk, although I think its the pot calling the kettle black, I have been well known for it all my life.
I have never had to apologize to anyone before about my drinking, but when I embarrass myself and lose respect in the eyes of others it's time to ask for help, do you think God can give me some self control?
I don't actually crave drink, I just like it too much, but I don't drink at all during the week, at weekends at home I have 2 bottles a weekend, and had a dry January last year, which meant a month of going to the pub and only drinking water!! But...it's hard wired into my brain that a party is no fun without drink, but then as the saying goes, I have the first drink and the rest have me, it's hard to break, and hearing people say they all know what I'm like hurts, because I deserve it, I'm told I'm an ambient drunk, but wouldn't it be so much nicer to be described as a moderate social drinker!? I just can't seem to manage it.
During lockdown I haven't had the opportunity to make a show of myself, but now it's being lifted I was like a kid in a sweet shop! But I'm 61! Shouldn't I have grown out of this by now?! What's wrong with me?
Please pray for me, there's only so much I can do without God.
Thank you for listening..
