Thank you all for the welcome!
I grew up in a conservative Christian household and have been going to a Baptist church my whole life. I started showing symptoms of Asperger's/ASD when I was three, and was diagnosed with PDD-NOS. My mom quit her job so she could help me get the proper care I needed after feeling that God was calling her to do so. I started going to a center where I got help with my development issues. Thanks to God and to the teachers there, I got help and was able to transfer to another school in 1st grade, and then to another in 2nd grade, where I was mainstreamed into a class with neurotypical students. I got along well enough with the students while still doing speech pathology sessions throughout my K-12 schooling. When I was 9, I got the formal diagnosis of Asperger's Syndrome. I thank God for helping me flourish after my diagnoses and for helping me gain more social skills over the years, and for protecting me and my mom, and my brother after we got in a car accident when I was 5.
I grew up learning about Jesus, praying to God, and reading the Bible. I made a proclamation of faith when I was 7 years old after having a discussion with my dad and deciding that I wanted to accept Jesus's gift of salvation, and I got baptized a year later a few weeks before my 9th birthday.
For several years, I was on fire for Jesus, read the Bible frequently, and told kids at my school about Jesus and the teachings in the Bible. But after exposing myself to some worldly content on the Internet and at school, I slowly started to backslide in my early teen years. I was somewhat angry and confused as a result, and I had a crisis of faith when I was 14-15 years old. Then, when I was 16, I started having anxiety attacks related to my Asperger's interests and other things, and I struggled with this anxiety on-and-off for several years. After I started having the anxiety attacks, I started to pray to God to help me and I wanted to strengthen my relationship with him again. I got steadily better but still struggled with sinful urges and thoughts.
Throughout the year 2017, when I was 20, I started having intrusive thoughts regarding sexuality, my interests, and my faith. After a while, I started to feel better, but last summer my anxiety and intrusive thoughts got very bad and I was afraid that I wasn't truly saved and that I would go to hell, especially when I realized I had some sinful thoughts and had sinful elements in my stories. I decided that I wanted to rededicate my life to Jesus and wanted to be more diligent in living a Christian lifestyle. I soon realized that my intrusive thoughts were likely from OCD, which correlates with Asperger's Syndrome/Autism Spectrum Disorder. I won't say it is for sure though, just because I haven't been officially diagnosed with either anxiety or OCD. I feel stronger in my faith now and I want to please the Lord, but I still struggle with the obsessive thoughts and anxiety on and off.
I'm glad you found us, and I look forward to seeing you out on the other boards as well. And thank you for telling us a little bit about yourself too 
