Yeah, I have to say that thus far I disagree with cessationism. I understand that people interpret things that way. While I agree that the miracles, signs, and wonders type of thing was for the early church, and were primarily to reach the Jewish people, I feel that the idea that many prophetic gifts and dreams are foretold for this time as well and we're also encouraged to desire them. Having said that, though, I do have to say that many things I've experienced in the so-called spirit-filled churches has seemed to be bordering on, if not fully fallen into, apostasy: barking like dogs, rolling (writhing) around on the floor, behaving hysterically, getting "high" or "drunk in the spirit," focusing on too many details of the things afoot in the spirit world, focusing on miracles, doing healing missions in a big lather of spectacle, going on whatever they feel the Lord is doing without checking themselves against Scripture and the counsel of brethren, going on missions and doing any sort of activities without consulting the Bible daily, if not moment to moment. Another thing I have wrestled with a lot is how often and when to speaking in tongues. I would never want to in any way quell a gift of the Holy Spirit, but I feel that there are so many Scriptural references that seem to support both doing so a lot and doing so only in very specific times and ways - and there seems to be a great deal of argument among many Christian scholars and ministers about this as well. I tend to err on the side of only doing so when there is someone to interpret, but that is a hard one. It seems that there is at the very least a line between proper glossolalia and in corrupting a Holy gift for what would amount to little more than engaging in a form of vain babbling. Of course, the cessationists would argue that the time for tongues is past... That is a hard one, but ultimately it would seem that one needn't ever necessarily engage in tongues in order to preach the gospel and follow Jesus. I've come to understand that none of us will ever - in this lifetime anyway - know everything well enough and we are all in a continual process. So, I'm not judging even those who may be in error on any point, as I have been in error myself, and from the vantage point of today, I might view the me of yesterday/ yesteryear a fool by comparison, and may feel similarly about the me of today in the future. And of course even the best of us are all far below and behind God and His understanding. So, I just do my best to discern and speak what I have come to understand, and refrain from what I know to be wrong and advise accordingly as needed, but all in openness and humility as best I can.
As for what I'd be doing, I would not be focusing on miracles, etc., except of course if God might in some rare instance want to do one through me or otherwise - but, as you say, He could do so with anyone. As far as gifts go, I'd be focused on healing, providing words of knowledge and prophetic words when given them, and deliverance, but the main point of the ministry would mostly be speaking to people about the truth of Jesus, especially those on the fence about God or who are very far away from Him, to try to make sure they are reached out to. I was very far away from Him and spoke against Him with alacrity, but He yet saved me. I could speak to such folks from a place of understanding, and that understanding could enhance my ability to use the words the Holy Spirit might give me in the moment. (I.e., any willing servant could receive and give the words he Holy Spirit provides, but if they involve a dialect or context, etc., that the person has no familiarity with, he or she will not be as well able to speak them clearly and convincingly.) It's really about sharing His Good news with love and care and empathy.
