Feeling Apathy Towards Fellowship

Whew! What a problem, eh? Well I only have three words for you. Focus On Jesus. Never mind the racial make up or anything else. Remember always the story of Peter and how he was able even to walk on water as long as his focus was on Jesus. It is only when he looked away that he began to sink.

And yes, you need the fellowship and indeed are commanded to assemble with other believers. So the way to judge a Church is whether what they teach lines up with the WRITTEN Word of God or not. If it doesn't , FLEE!

Remember this verse? Psalms 46:10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.

Well, if you are a born again Christian, and you literally get still and pray and LISTEN, you will hear God speak. We tend to forget what prayer is. We act as though it is talking to God, which it is, but it is more. Prayer is a Conversation. A TWO WAY conversation. God speaks to us in many ways. What we as Christians must learn to do is recognize the voice of God.

I will join my prayers with yours in seeking His place for you in a local Church.

Lotuspetal, its like your reading my story. I met God in a church that was like a family to me. I fit so well, grew so much, and to this day cannot thank those people enough for how they help me grow as a Christian. I moved out that State and into another State in the US. Same problem as you outlined. All I can tell you is HOW my story ended, mainly because I feel God is refining me from within and maybe my struggles might put up a roadblock to other Christians who are experiencing the same type of struggle.

I have NEVER, and probably never will, find another church like that one I left. Because of this expectation that I had, eventually I STOPPED going to church. Over a period of five years, I eventually stopped studying God's word, or seeking His voice, or even going to Him in prayer. In fact, I think on some level I stopped focusing on Him and focused more on how I thought it should go. To make a long story short, i came to a place of emotional and spiritual emptiness. I have repented and have been shown some places of sin from God (not easy, especially when i felt taht I was very submitted and committed to God at one point...how could THAT happen to ME?????).

Now I struggle every day. I sorrow at some things that happened because of my choices and not trusting God. I know that it doesn't feel like it right now, but TRUST Jesus.... He promises that He will work things out to the good, and He will. Continually pray that God either place a good church for you to attend or to change your feelings of apathy that your are feeling for the church you are attending now.

Keep in contact with other Christians. satan would love nothing better than to isolate you so then he can whisper how worthless you are. We are not worthless...because we are children of the King.

*hugs and blessings to you*

I've had this problem, going through it now actually. I want to go to a church that has every and any race in it, because of my husband. I find that "black" churches often accept us more readily than "white" churches, yet I don't want him to be uncomfortable and would really like a church that just accepts everybody no matter what color. I just can't seem to find that here, it's hard to make yourself go to church with the reactions that you get at most of them, I wish people would wake up and realize that God is not a God of color, He's a God of people.