- May 14, 2019
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- Country
- United Kingdom
- Faith
- Non-Denom
- Marital Status
- Separated
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More mention has been made about my supposed affairs in court documents and proceedings than anything relating to my angry outbursts. There is no possible excuse to give for my outbursts, but it seems that any and all attention shifted to the supposed affairs when the angry outbursts caused the separation in the first place.
I have an order against me. I suspect I know who it might be, but it's a dangerous thing for me to do.
There are a lot of demands at the moment from her asking me do this and to do that. A lot of it involves stuff in the house that she needs. For the most part, I cannot bring myself to do it because it feels like a piece of my soul leaves with every item she wants.
I long to spend time with her. I long to date her again. I long to sit down with her and just talk. It doesn't even have to be about our situation. Just talking to her like we used to would mean the world to me, and would perhaps, in some way, soften her heart for me again and allow her to see the change in me as a person.
At the moment, I do get to spend a considerable amount of time with our son over weekends, but it is far away (roughly 5 hours' drive one way), hence why I can't do the personal things easily.
...and then this...Our first few times of seeing each other .... we got on like a house on fire. It was like we were back to being where we were. Much laughter was enjoyed, and we spent a lot of time reminiscing about our marriage.
points very much to her being torn about her affair. This is very common. You need to make hay whenever the sun shines and power through the other times. Expect (hope and pray for) ups ...but as long as she in in her affair, they will be followed by downs.and her whole attitude towards me that weekend had changed as well. No longer chatty. No longer warm and receptive. Stone cold and by the book. The following Tuesday is when she reiterated her wish to divorce.
I have received a number of texts since, of which none relate to our son. I have taken the stance to ignore them as my text about our son was ignored.
To an outsider, it may seem childish, but I am not willing to be taken for a fool down a one-way street that only suits her. Fair is fair. Legally, communication regarding our son has to at least be acknowledged, which it wasn't.
"Wow" is all I can say! Your response has hit home in so many ways. Thank you for that.
I have done my best to respond to your reply above in red.
Do you believe that God desires for you to reconcile with your wife first or above reconciliation with him? Should we make peace with our brides before becoming the brides of Christ? Is forsaking all others, no longer required?Thank you for this, Raymond. It definitely puts things into perspective, but surely in this instance I want the same thing that God wants: reconciliation. I don't believe that it is God's will to let us divorce. I don't think that is ever God's will in any marriage.
Yeah, I may have a shorter timeline in mind than what God might have, but when I pray over our marriage, I know that God is in agreement for what I am praying for.
Or am I being naive?