- Apr 8, 2019
- 20
- 20
- 26
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Protestant
- Marital Status
- Single
Hello, my name is Dawit. I have been a Christian my whole life and yet I never dived into the whole bible. I was supposedly saved 4 years ago in a church service, but I have led a sinful life afterwards. Recently, I start to understand I was never because I never relied on God whenever I sinned and I was convinced back then that my salvation was works based. I feel ashamed for feeling this because I know now It's through faith in Christ that saves a person. I am also convinced I have several problems with my heart such as feeling less affections and love toward others, and generally feeling empty in myself, despite whatever I will. At this point, I don't know if I will ever be saved or not because I do want to seek and have faith but I feel like I am not doing anything Wholeheardly. The only feeling I know is fear that will burn forever and that no matter how much I try to reach out to God, I will never be saved because God knows my heart and is probably disgusted, considering I blaspheme. Even though, it's my will to repent whatever bad or blasphemous thoughts that come to mind, my heart doesn't care as much and this convinces me how rotten I am that God will never hear me out again. Is there any hope for me?
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