I don't think anyone can help me.

SnowTiger said:

No matter how many people say "God loves" or "Jesus loves" it never penetrates my brain. No matter how many times people tell me "Jesus died for your sins" I never believe it. I believe every last sin will be counted against me. I'm not totally sure why. The voice in my head just says "you were bad enough." He says "you're just bad enough."

I'm constantly suffering because of the voices I hear. I wish someone could help me. The problem is the voices are constant and what people say passes away. The voices are always there, so I can't remember the nice things people say to me.

I also feel like God gave me nasty signs and miracles so that I would know I'm not forgiven. I know the signs could be from the devil, but for some reason I always believe they were from God.

I wish I could find God somewhere in my life. I wish I could go back to believing that God loves me. I look in the mirror and I look at my eyes and all I can see is suffering. My eyes are full of fear and paranoia.

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Ask your doctor if medications will help.

SnowTiger said:

I wish I could find God somewhere in my life. I wish I could go back to believing that God loves me. I look in the mirror and I look at my eyes and all I can see is suffering. My eyes are full of fear and paranoia.

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Don't listen to people, listen to God.

Isaiah 54:11 O thou afflicted, tossed with tempest, and not comforted, behold, I will lay thy stones with fair colours, and lay thy foundations with sapphires.
54:12 And I will make thy windows of agates, and thy gates of carbuncles, and all thy borders of pleasant stones.
54:13 And all thy children shall be taught of the LORD; and great shall be the peace of thy children.
54:14 In righteousness shalt thou be established: thou shalt be far from oppression; for thou shalt not fear: and from terror; for it shall not come near thee.
54:15 Behold, they shall surely gather together, but not by me: whosoever shall gather together against thee shall fall for thy sake.
54:16 Behold, I have created the smith that bloweth the coals in the fire, and that bringeth forth an instrument for his work; and I have created the waster to destroy.
54:17 No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is of me, saith the LORD.

Looks like the first half of verse 11 is describing you. And if it is, read the rest of the verses.
And pay special attention to verse 17 where it says to condemn these tongues that rise up against you.

SnowTiger said:

I wish I could find God somewhere in my life. I wish I could go back to believing that God loves me. I look in the mirror and I look at my eyes and all I can see is suffering. My eyes are full of fear and paranoia.

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So in your mind God is a liar?

SnowTiger said:

I don't think God is a liar.

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Well, since you know that, it makes sense for you to believe on His word. Start reading His word.Do not let it depart from your eyes. It will silence the voice of the enemy. If you are determined that God is not a liar, the voices that torture you cannot remain.

Snow you are ok Buddy, I know that you accepted Jesus as I witnessed this and you remember it don't you? The devil is lying and he has NO power over you at all, unless you let him have it.
Tell him to shut up and get behind you in Jesus name.
satan is like a toothless dog on a chain. All he can do is bark friend.

Here is the deal, it would be nice if you could believe it but you don't have to to be saved and also to be loved. All the more so if there is a medical condition inhibiting that believe. Read the promises in the bible and just believe those. Trust in the Word not in your own understanding.

Snow Tiger, I don't know what your beliefs are but you will either believe the Bible or you won't, because that is the only place you will find answers to your problems. The apostle Paul was in his own estimate the chief of sinners, a brilliant and self righteous but lost pharisee who was guilty of aiding in the persecution and murder of believers, whose persecution Christ took VERY personally. Yet Christ saved Paul just the same.

If God can save Paul, God can save anyone including you. That is a Bible FACT. THe question is, do you WANT to believe it?

Sorry if I come acrss as gruff but I believe in getting to the point and not wasting time.

SnowTiger said:

No matter how many people say "God loves" or "Jesus loves" it never penetrates my brain. No matter how many times people tell me "Jesus died for your sins" I never believe it. I believe every last sin will be counted against me. I'm not totally sure why. The voice in my head just says "you were bad enough." He says "you're just bad enough."

I'm constantly suffering because of the voices I hear. I wish someone could help me. The problem is the voices are constant and what people say passes away. The voices are always there, so I can't remember the nice things people say to me.

I also feel like God gave me nasty signs and miracles so that I would know I'm not forgiven. I know the signs could be from the devil, but for some reason I always believe they were from God.

I wish I could find God somewhere in my life. I wish I could go back to believing that God loves me. I look in the mirror and I look at my eyes and all I can see is suffering. My eyes are full of fear and paranoia.

I think maybe I just listen to the devil too much. But it's hard not to listen because I hear his voice all the time.

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I think a lot of people with mental problems could cure themselves simply by walking with the Lord.

dreadnought said:

I think a lot of people with mental problems could cure themselves simply by walking with the Lord.

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How does one walk with the lord?

Andrew98 said:

How does one walk with the lord?

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Just like I told you, Trust in Him and let Him lead you :]

Southernscotty said:

Just like I told you, Trust in Him and let Him lead you :]

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:]

Andrew98 said:

How does one walk with the lord?

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Pray constantly (1 Thess 5:17).

Stop listening to that voice, it's against you and so it's not from God, it's from the accuser.It will do and will say anything just to make you believe its lies, that's how it works, that's how it deceives.I hear the same voice, day by day, it had a great power over me, now, I am fully aware that it's against me and not for me.Be aware of its negative influence.By the way, remember the thief on the cross who got saved right there, I mean, right before his death, that's how much Jesus loves you.

Think about what Jesus said, come to Him, repent, ask forgiveness and forget all the sins you have done because He also forgets them.Why He would remind you of your past sins when He says that you need to leave them behind? You see, that voice is from the accuser.Even more, remember one of the parable told by Jesus, the parable of the persistent widow with the unjust judge.The woman kept on coming to that unjust judge to get justice, the judge had no fear of God or people but he gave her justice because she kept on coming again and again.How much more God who is just in all His ways? Will He not offer you what you really need, a heart a flesh and a new spirit? More than this, think about Paul ( Saul ) who was against God and His children and got saved? What about Peter who denied God three times? You see, God is waiting with arms wide open for every single soul from this planet.

Be aware of that negative voice, when it says something against you, question it.If it accuse you remember that Jesus forgives you all your sins if you repent and ask forgiveness.

Look, a conversation between me and that voice.

Voice: You are ugly, the other people are so beautiful, this brings them true joy.
I: Why am I ugly? Who says that I am ugly? Ugly by whose standards? What does it mean to be ugly?

Voice: You are nothing and you will achieve nothing.
I: Who says that I am nothing? What makes me to be nothing? Do I have to achieve something in life, is this the true purpose of life? Who are you to judge me? Jesus died for me, if I am nothing, why did He died for me so that I can be with Him forever?

Voice: You did many sins, you are a bad person, how dare you to want to talk with God? How dare you to ask forgiveness? You don't deserve it! You are too bad!
I:Yes, I have many sins, I acknowledge each one of my sins, it hurts me for everything wrong I have done, I know it was wrong and bad, but still, God says that He can and He will forgive me if I came to Him.Yes, all my sins make me to feel dirty but God says that if I came to Him He will make me a new creation! Forgiveness is not something I deserve, it is the free gift of God for all of us! Jesus came in special for the people who are "too bad to be saved" because He can save anyone who wants to be saved!

Voice: Look, you have made another sin, God can't forgive you again and again, this time is over, you will not be forgiven, it's too late!
I: I know, I am aware of my sin and it hurts me badly, I need God more than anything in this world! Without Him I can't, I can't! I repent and I ask for God's forgiveness knowing the lesson I learnt from my sin.

You see, fight against it and eventually it will leave!

SnowTiger said:

Thank you for all the responses and information. I will try to take it to heart. I wish these voices would just go away. Maybe I need to keep trying different medications. I feel like I've tried everything though, and they just won't go away.

The devil seems like he knows everything about me and knows my weaknesses. He is constantly attacking me.

I have been doing my best to repent. I should probably read the bible more. But I cut out a lot of my sins.

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Ignore the voices.

SnowTiger said:

It's really hard to ignore. The devil is constantly telling me to do bad things. Makes me feel like an awful person.

I feel like the devil is going to win this battle.

I shouldn't say that, but the devil really gets to me and makes me feel bad about myself.

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What do we have to do to be saved?

SnowTiger said:

It's really hard to ignore. The devil is constantly telling me to do bad things. Makes me feel like an awful person.

I feel like the devil is going to win this battle.

I shouldn't say that, but the devil really gets to me and makes me feel bad about myself.

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As long as we don't sin, there's nothing awful about us.