cant stop thinking about it

There's this saying that goes, You can't stop birds from flying over your head but you can keep them from building a nest in your hair. It's the same with intrusive thoughts. It's important to understand that it's not about getting rid of the thoughts. And believe you me I fully understand the whole wanting the thoughts to just be gone. But first and foremost you got recognize that you are not the intrusive thoughts you have. Even if you have to tell yourself this out loud, do it. You're are not the bad thoughts you have, they have nothing to do with you or who you are as a person. Here's the thing everybody has intrusive thoughts. But people who don't have OCD or anxiety, they don't react to the thoughts or put importance on them.

I truly understand the frustration. I often just wanted to close my eyes and the thoughts would just disappear. I almost went crazy, but one day, the Holy Spirit sent a simple message (via a quote on the internet years ago) which said "OCD is a disconnect with the Holy Spirit". I don't pretend to know your faith in God, but I can tell you that that very moment when I read those words, it felt like air was breathed back into my lungs from this stressful pressure...I had immediately put my faith into God to help me handle something I had no control over. It was not easy over the next few years, but I was stronger each and every "episode" I had, knowing that the Lord was going to be with me and hold my hand through it. The Lord our God has the power to fully "heal" your mind. I quote the word heal because your mind does not repair itself like a cut, but can be made to relax itself through powers greater than ourselves. If you truly put your trust in God and give your OCD episode to him to "handle"...you will feel a big relief if you do this...do you know why? Because he created you, just as you are, so why do you think he would not be able to help you at this and every moment you think these repetitive thoughts? He is extending his arm (via the Holy Spirit) to you. Take it! And allow him to help you by completely submitting yourself to his Holy Will. Trust me..it worked for me and it can for you...Give it a Chance!

God Bless you.

Charles

Charles please elaborate on what EXACTLY you mean by ""OCD is a disconnect with the Holy Spirit". as just reading it by your post alone can be dangerous to others with OCD and their walk with God.

I think what he was trying to say was that the Holy Spirit (God) knows OCD is a disease. Knows that we don't want the intrusive thoughts, urges, whatever that come into our heads.

You aren't alone. I often times have thoughts very similar to yours. I've found that by simply responding to Scripture encouraging us to "Resist the devil and he will flee from you" he will depart from me . I very calmly speak to Satan reminding him the same God that booted him out of heaven lives inside of me, that he created me and all the rest of creation, that the one true living God lives in my body and he is simply does not possess the wherewithal to confront a person washed in the blood of Christ. Then I simply tell him to depart from me. Scripture tells us if we resist him he will flee from us.
If he returns a short time later as he often does with me I ask him if he has forgotten what I had just recently reminded him of. "Satan, didn't we just have this conversation?" "Jesus Christ dwells in me. Remove yourself from my presence."
I've shared this with you because recently Jesus Christ set me free from the bondage of an unforgiving spirit that had held me captive for more than 30 years. I experienced the release of a heavy burden I'd been carrying all those years and Jesus healed me of the poison that I, myself had caused. Of course soon thereafter along comes the devil trying to convince me that no such miracle had occured as he tried to lure me back into my old thinking. I found there was no need to raise my voice nor display aggressive behavior. Just calmly remind him of my position in Christ. That responce to his attack has worked far better than I can tell you.

Lily, what you thought in that moment when you saw your niece in the tub is NOT uncommon. But guess what? YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS! I struggled with this for years and thought I would end up getting possessed and killing my parents. My parents ended up praying with me. They didn't freak out at all cause they know me.

Please do not kill yourself over this. If you truly feel like you are going to kill yourself please tell someone immediately. You are not a psycho as we all here on this board believed we were when first dealing with OCD. We all have crazy thoughts just most people don't talk about them. Did you harm your niece when you saw her in the tub??? No??? Guess what then you won't. Just having these thoughts don't make you crazy and doesn't mean you won't do it. I got to to point where I thought I was going to kill myself. I went to see a Christian, Bible-based counselor who is not gung-ho on meds but encouraged me to take some Prozac so my anxiety will go down and I can think clearly. She told me she knew God had me covered as He does you and she didn't worry about me assaulting others or myself. I called her up because I was so anxiety ridden and I almost put myself in a mental hospital due to fear I would commit suicide. I went to see a psychologist just for meds and while he said many normal doctors would have put me in a mental institute he knew it was just my OCD and I needed to give the meds more time. So I had two days and he said if needed in 48 hours he will put me in a hospital but he warned that in there it will get worse before getting better. All I did was give it time and I knew God was walking me through it.

God has really helped me each day and I am on Prozac but I can think much more clearly without being afraid all the time of harming others or myself. I want to really encourage you to seek Christian Bible-based counseling and one that is not so against meds.

God's grace is with you and I am trusting that is what is keeping you from killing yourself. Satan wants you to die cause he knows what a great warrior of Christ you will be in your life. Think about it, he doesn't attack non-believers or people who don't care about God.

Your release from this was already done at the cross.

There are lot of people who have thoughts like these. If you google intrusive thoughts or look on youtube there so much information about it. I know what it's like to have thoughts that make you question who you are as a person but they're just thoughts. It's important to be patient with yourself. I go to God with my thoughts. I tell him; 'Yes that vile thought just popped into my head but you're are bigger than that thought. Any terrible thought I have is nothing compared to you. You knew I was going to have that thought before I actually had and you still love me.' You are not your intrusive thoughts. Keep telling yourself. The fact that you would rather die than hurt your nieces attest to that. OCD has a way of attacking the things you care about the most. There are a lot of therapists that help people dealing with intrusive thoughts.

Fear is what is holding you back of not telling your therapist. We are here understand this 100% as we thought when we told our therapists our similar thoughts that we would get put away or that we were psycho. But any good therapist that understands OCD and the different types of it will not take you away from your nieces. We tend to think about things that terrify us most but yet it feels like our wants. You are so convinced you will either do that to your nieces or you must die and neither is the truth. If it was in your heart to commit these things, you would have done it by now and not tell your husband, not come on here for help or try to seek help. You would have done it without no conviction on it.

Watching the news really triggers our OCD and it would be a good idea to stop watching it as the news only installs fear into us. There are good Christian counselors out there that will work with your budget or may even be free since your insurance ran out. I can help look for you if needed. May I ask what meds you are on or tried in the past? Read 2 Peter. Especially chapter 2.

covergirl said:

Charles please elaborate on what EXACTLY you mean by ""OCD is a disconnect with the Holy Spirit". as just reading it by your post alone can be dangerous to others with OCD and their walk with God.

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I'm sorry if anyone mis-interpreted what I was saying about the OCD being a disconnect with the Holy Spirit. My main point is that we need to establish an even stronger connection with the Holy Spirit than ever before due to how difficult OCD is. I know it is easy to say, just relax and have faith...but faith in the Lord was so important for me at a desperate time in my life. I can tell you that the Holy Spirit rushed into me that moment when I gave my uncontrolled thoughts over to the Lord. It made me immediately relax and to put more trust in him and in the Holy Spirit. I don't think there is any one solution for everyone experiencing OCD, but I truly think that the Lord is asking us to turn to him and hand him any problem we cannot control. My OCD will always be with me, but it's my reaction to it that has changed since that time I read those words "disconnect with the Holy Spirit". I knew I needed to truly deepen my faith and it gradually became easier with every episode. I hope this helps explain it from my perspective

Yes it does. Makes sense. Thank you.

people with ocd are probably the safest people; especially within their fear cycle.