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Mamaof4
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I just don't know how much more I can take . I am a christian , I got saved when I was 14 and I've always been in church . I met my husband through my mom and he comes from a family of 7 . All of them were homeschooled and sheltered . We have been married 9 years in September . It has been awful the whole 9 years , he has went wild since we got married , he's hurt me more then he will know . First I'll start with the things that he has even into that have always been first in his life , first it was kayaking , then gambling and playing video games and now for the last 6 years it's been golf 24/7 while I take care of 4 kids and make sure we go to church with or without him. I love The Lord and he has been the only thing that has helped me. My husband has been controlling , verbally and physically abusive . I have left 3 times because of that but I've always come back because he promises to change . He hasn't been physically abusive in a year . This year has been awful , he went on a golf trip with buddies and they went to a strip club and he met a stripper , kissed her and became emotionally attached with her for a month until I caught him . It's been 9 moths and God has helped me forgive him
But just in the last 3 weeks he has become distant again and never wants to have sex with me and pushes me away . I try to talk to him about it but he doesn't see it and he is emotionally unattached to me . It's real bad . Satan is fighting so bad and I'm about to give up. I'm still praying and reading my Bible but I can't take much more . I feel like he doesn't love me and he sure doesn't show it . I wish he would just say I don't love you , I'm unattracted to you and I don't want to be married anymore and be fair to me and let me find somebody who makes me happy cause right now I'm miserable and I just want a friend somebody I can have fun with and who will love me and God !!!! Help me I'm about to lose it .
But just in the last 3 weeks he has become distant again and never wants to have sex with me and pushes me away . I try to talk to him about it but he doesn't see it and he is emotionally unattached to me . It's real bad . Satan is fighting so bad and I'm about to give up. I'm still praying and reading my Bible but I can't take much more . I feel like he doesn't love me and he sure doesn't show it . I wish he would just say I don't love you , I'm unattracted to you and I don't want to be married anymore and be fair to me and let me find somebody who makes me happy cause right now I'm miserable and I just want a friend somebody I can have fun with and who will love me and God !!!! Help me I'm about to lose it .