God might be changing my mind.

I posted this in the Singles forum a few weeks ago, but thought I should also post it here for obvious reasons.

Regular board members may know that I'm a childfree believer and about how my narrow prospects for a mate has wrecked emotional and spiritual havoc on me in the past. It was a few months ago that I felt God pry those spirits of torment from my mind, no doubt in part because of the prayers you folks said on my behalf. (God bless you, friends.)

While fatherhood is still by no means high on my priority list, I feel as though God is urging me to submit my decision on whether or not to have little Purges to Him. I feel a sense of relief and comfort in doing so. I don't rule out the possibility that He might have someone on the way who wants kids; He can use people to change and shape us for the better.

I should also note that I was teased quite relentlessly by girls throughout my teen years, and if someone had told me back then that I'd be searching for a life-mate in the future, I would've laughed. I have to believe that this "progress" is for a reason.

Any other singles feel like God has personally "molded" you in some big way?

xfreakazoidx said:

I think its hard because we often say "I know I don't want kids!" THen we make reasons why. But I run into the problem of does this mean I am not trusting in God? After all I didn't trust Him with my love life, when I finally did I ended up with a wife from the other side of the planet who was beyond perfect. So does this mean I should trust Him about having a kid or not instead of simply trying to control if I want one or not?

This is why as the months go on I find it hard to say flat out I just don't want kids. I am leaving it in His hands on whether or not that will happen. So I to find myself slowly feeling like maybe He wants us to have one. Its so confusing. Part of me feels like He is saying now is not the time for children. But part of me feels like Hes saying have one. I don't know which part is me and which part is Him. Our fears of the unknown often make us blind to His answers to what we fear.

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I know what you mean; we often confound our voices and wills with His.

Let's pray for each other's spiritual clarity so that confusion can be as minimal as possible.