what are you feeling right now?

aflower4God said:

You know what FRUSTRATES the heck out of me is when GOOD LOVING KIND WARM HEARTED people like Super Kal and Lady Bug are not in love, but really nasty people like celebs and hurtful others claim to be the happiest that they have ever been in their lives because they found someone to love. THIS IS NOT FAIR, and I just prayed to God about this issue and asking why this happens. IT IS JUST NOT FAIR!!!!!!!
I HAD to get this off my mind, thank you for allowing me to rant cause I am feeling SO frustrated about this, and I told God this too

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I suspect that God knows what he's doing, sweetie.
And, those you are talking about are looking for a godly relationship... whereas some others who appear happy probably have less strict standards!

srjoanna said:

trapped
weak
tired
so many things...just no words, as usual.

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Words aren't necessary, sweetie.

You are loved, and we understand.
Praying.

Criada said:

I suspect that God knows what he's doing, sweetie.
And, those you are talking about are looking for a godly relationship... whereas some others who appear happy probably have less strict standards!

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Hi there my dear sweet loving sister, I never thought of it that way, Thank you for pointing that out to me. God bless you and LOTS OF LOVE to you {{{{{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}}}}}

srjoanna said:

I wish so much I could just disappear for a while. To not feel this pain and hurt
Just for a few days, to not exist.
But its all my fault that Im hurting, so I deserve to be like this.
There is no other explanation, I must have brought this upon myself.
And now Im suffering because of it.
Im crying so much....the tears wont stop.
Are they tears of pride? I do not know
Tears of pain? I do not know
All I know is that Im........hurting.....
" Dear God forgive me....please....."

p.s thank you everyone for your prayers. I need them so much. ((((hugs))))

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Joanna if you went a way I would be devistated and I KNOW that I would not be the only one. You are such a LOVING WONDERFUL DEAR CARING FRIEND. I am SO glad that you are here and part of the family on CF. PLEASE KNOW that I am ALWAYS there for you and so is Jesus. PLEASE HOLD ON, I know hurt, I know that you are hurting and it pains me to hear that you are suffering so much.
I just finished reading a novel with a really good message the novel was called "A Hopeful Heart" and the message at the very end was so touching. Basically what we think may be the best is SECOND best to God and God surly wants us to have the BEST!!!!!! I pray every night for the Loving Lord to show you THE BEST and help you though this. GOD BLESS YOU and AGAIN here are those BIG cyber hugs sending your way {{{{{{{{{{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Lots of love to you

rejected
alone
ugly

trying so hard to fight these feelings bc i know they arent my own... but it's all i feel right now...

Tired of feelin like no matter what I do, or say, its never good enuff. :cries:

Feeling really dizzy, tired, lonely, and a bit down. I've got some stuff on my heart. Nothing major, but a few things.

Praying for all those who feel depressed tonight! And Mama Dory, whatever you are doing I'm sure is the very best that you can. Just keep your head up and press on. You have the strength inside that God has given you and you've made it thus far. Don't give up!!

srjoanna said:

I wish so much I could just disappear for a while. To not feel this pain and hurt
Just for a few days, to not exist.
But its all my fault that Im hurting, so I deserve to be like this.
There is no other explanation, I must have brought this upon myself.
And now Im suffering because of it.
Im crying so much....the tears wont stop.
Are they tears of pride? I do not know
Tears of pain? I do not know
All I know is that Im........hurting.....
" Dear God forgive me....please....."

p.s thank you everyone for your prayers. I need them so much. ((((hugs))))

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sweetie, it's an illness, not a punishment.
Would you tell someone with cancer that they brought it on themselves?
We live in a fallen world, and illness is part of that - it isn't your fault

Praying for comfort and peace

Mama Dory said:

Tired of feelin like no matter what I do, or say, its never good enuff. :cries:

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Love you
And God loves you so much more.. and He is pleased with you , sweetie.
Hang in there

Praying.

upset
blah
in pain

so tired of not having money. Can't pay our bills, satellite internet got disconnected this morning (for non payment), compliments of my mother n law I am using her dial up connection (which she doesn't know) pretty soon we will be loosing our land line phone. Getting ready to be without one of my mental medications and it will be next Friday before I will be able to get it filled.

DH moves to the car shop next week (he's an auto tech) he was asked to come to the car shop by his new GM so maybe things will change. We have been suffering for a long time and it's our turn to shine.

My teeth still hurt from a dental appointment Monday. I'm about to call for some pain killers but that won't do much good when we can't pay for it.

Thanks for letting me vent. I'm having to us dial up internet so I won't be on much. Praying for everyone who is suffering besides me to everyone.

All I want to do is stay in bed and stay there all day, all night, everday that's the only way I know how to cope and I want to too.

Sorry it's so hard, sweetie.
Praying that things get better for you and yours very soon

Criada said:

Sorry it's so hard, sweetie.
Praying that things get better for you and yours very soon

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Thank You.

I'm feeling like something inside of me and life in general has this emptiness yet this heaviness, I have a hard time copingI can't face the world. e.g. potential employers for example, if they see my anxiety and my feeling intimidated in front of them, I'm already a non-decision.
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I feel rejected (even though it's not the person's intent) because someone on msn "doesn't have much to say" when I'm trying to talk to them. It is hurting a lot right now.

WalkinwithJesus said:

upset
blah
in pain

so tired of not having money. Can't pay our bills, satellite internet got disconnected this morning (for non payment), compliments of my mother n law I am using her dial up connection (which she doesn't know) pretty soon we will be loosing our land line phone. Getting ready to be without one of my mental medications and it will be next Friday before I will be able to get it filled.

DH moves to the car shop next week (he's an auto tech) he was asked to come to the car shop by his new GM so maybe things will change. We have been suffering for a long time and it's our turn to shine.

My teeth still hurt from a dental appointment Monday. I'm about to call for some pain killers but that won't do much good when we can't pay for it.

Thanks for letting me vent. I'm having to us dial up internet so I won't be on much. Praying for everyone who is suffering besides me to everyone.

All I want to do is stay in bed and stay there all day, all night, everday that's the only way I know how to cope and I want to too.

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My dear sweet loving friend this breaks my heart, if I had the money I would pay for your bills and such, I hate to see you sad like this, I WILL pray for you that God helps you with the bills and such. I want to let you know that I paid for rent by selling my "trendy clothes' at a place called Platos Closet. They once gave both my best friend and I a check for 300 dollars for selling over 100 trendy shirts and skirts, they take anything that teens and young adults would wear. Just a thought PRAYING FOR YOU and LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU {{{{{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}

Lady Bug said:

I'm feeling like something inside of me and life in general has this emptiness yet this heaviness, I have a hard time copingI can't face the world. e.g. potential employers for example, if they see my anxiety and my feeling intimidated in front of them, I'm already a non-decision.
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I feel rejected (even though it's not the person's intent) because someone on msn "doesn't have much to say" when I'm trying to talk to them. It is hurting a lot right now.

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I feel REALLY bad for you my dear sweet loving sister. PLEASE KNOW that I have been praying REALLY hard for you as well. God bless you and LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU {{{{{{{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}

thanks flower4God. I'm feeling expendable by that person, I needed your words.

hurt
sad
rejected and lonely

it seems like the entire world has someone for themselves except me... i really, really hate where i work... i really do.
I'm an idiot and a fool... a die-hard romantic and a "nice guy"...
it's never gonna change.

Jesus is still here with you, Day Dreamer

I've gotten to the point of giving up on most things in my life right now. I've been trying to plan out a move to get away from Texas and my ex but every step of the way I find another roadblock telling me it's not going to happen. Every time I try to be positive and pray on it the only response I get is either another realization of why its not going to work or really bad panic attacks that just make me feel like there's no point in trying anymore.

I have, for now at least, given up on God, I know He's there but He's got me on ignore or something. I know He's not the one giving me all the bad thoughts when I try to go to Him, I'm not blaming God for any of this. I just don't feel I am really His, like maybe all my doubts the last few years were right and He knows I probably don't have faith, so why should he bother with me.

I just have so much working against me right now with no reasonable way out. I'm still planning on moving but I no longer care where I go really as long as it's on the west coast, or what I'm going to do when I get there.

I don't even know why I'm still on this site, all it does is make me feel worse seeing others so happy and sure about their faith. I wish I could have that, but I am more convinced everyday that's not meant for me. With my situation though and lack of anyone offline except my ex, this is my main connection to other people and the outside world till I move.

Sorry for the length, just have too much on my mind and feel like I'm going to freak out if I don't get some of it out. There's more but I've said enough for now, and probably too much already.