I'd like to tell you about how I was baptized in the Holy Spirit. I was sitting in my camper reading a book. I prayed over it first that only the Lord speak to me. The Lord said to me, 'the Holy Spirit can speak to you from anywhere.' This set a light bulb off in my head like never before. You see I wasn't raised in a church ... I went to Sunday school on my own. My dad rotated shifts and was raising four kids by himself ... church was the last thing on his mind at the time. As it turns out ... that day in the camper was when the Lord introduced me to the Holy Spirit. I realized I had never paid any attention to that part ... no one had ever really taught me anything about the Holy Spirit.
Well, things changed fast. I fell in love with the Holy Spirit that day and everything changed. I couldn't get enough of the Word. For months and months everyone said it was like I wasn't here ... I literally felt like I was floating in another world. Understandings were coming at me so fast I could barely keep up. I was a horrible student in school ... it was amazing during that time ... everything I took in I retained and understood ... my family were simply stunned.
this took place less than a month after I was water baptized.
I don't speak in tongues. And before someone tells me it's because i haven't asked (the most common thing said to me) I'll tell you I have prayed and prayed and cried and cried about it. One might ask why would you cry about it. Well, simply from the amount of people who have told me I don't have the holy Spirit because I don't speak in tongues. It's astounding how much I know without the Holy Spirit?!
I know one person who threw themself on the altar for hours and prayed and cried ... nothing ... this person knows more about being a christian than most I've met.
I'm not here to burst anyone's bubble ... I'm here to tell you what it feels like when you tell someone they can have this gift too and the Lord hasn't given it to them. It is a gift, afterall. I can't tell you the countless tears I've cried and others I know because that is put out there. I know the Holy Spirit is in me and I've come to terms with it ... this is for all the people reading this who don't speak in tongues ... If and when you do it is a gift. Gifts are not free for the taking. I rarely speak about this because it is a subject that creates division and I believe it's because of that one thing ... because we are told we can have it ... we just have to want it enough ... I say take that up with the Holy Spirit.
Like I said ... not here to burst anyone's bubble ... just asking you respect the hearts of those who don't ... we're no less.
God bless and peace.