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mich_ellie
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Hey!
I just read most of the thread. I happened upon it when I went looking for answers.... It's hard to explain.
Congratulations on going over 100 days! That is HUGE! God is good, and He is showing you!
Back in January I admitted to my best friend I had overdosed and almost killed myself. It was my first time being verbally honest and open. After that day, I also opened up to my youth leader, and found out I have amazing people who love me. I still sometimes want to turn back, but I don't need to add pain to my life- no good.
And I haven't talked to my friend in a few months, since she is going through something. Even if I need someone, I just feel like a burden to other peoples lives, but I don't want to!
I am just thinking about what you said quite a while ago... About not wanting to be open because that would involve CS. That was same about my dad (He is verbally abusive, that is all). I even lied to child services, even if I had no reason to. I am just sensitive and my dad intimidates me. BUT think of it like this. Your brother did horrible things, and they have done a lot of damage. Is it safe for your niece, to be raised by your brother? You love her, protect her. It can be so hard, but nobody had mentioned that.
Remember, make God your #1, an anchor. Listen to what He tells you. You seem like such an amazing person. I know that you have touched my life through your story.
I will be praying for you, because prayer is powerful....
I hope the road trip works out!! And also the trip to visit your friend- It is hard being separated by such good friends when you want them to be there with you!
Love
I just read most of the thread. I happened upon it when I went looking for answers.... It's hard to explain.
Congratulations on going over 100 days! That is HUGE! God is good, and He is showing you!
Back in January I admitted to my best friend I had overdosed and almost killed myself. It was my first time being verbally honest and open. After that day, I also opened up to my youth leader, and found out I have amazing people who love me. I still sometimes want to turn back, but I don't need to add pain to my life- no good.
And I haven't talked to my friend in a few months, since she is going through something. Even if I need someone, I just feel like a burden to other peoples lives, but I don't want to!
I am just thinking about what you said quite a while ago... About not wanting to be open because that would involve CS. That was same about my dad (He is verbally abusive, that is all). I even lied to child services, even if I had no reason to. I am just sensitive and my dad intimidates me. BUT think of it like this. Your brother did horrible things, and they have done a lot of damage. Is it safe for your niece, to be raised by your brother? You love her, protect her. It can be so hard, but nobody had mentioned that.
Remember, make God your #1, an anchor. Listen to what He tells you. You seem like such an amazing person. I know that you have touched my life through your story.
I will be praying for you, because prayer is powerful....
I hope the road trip works out!! And also the trip to visit your friend- It is hard being separated by such good friends when you want them to be there with you!
Love
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