Please Pray for Me...on the edge

Sure thing...I'll pray for you

read Psalms 46:1, it will help

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
just know that if you live in God's Kingdom, nothing out of His will, will happen to you

read the topic about God's Kingdom in the main thread board, it goes Kingdom of God is here and has power.... something like that

Be well and know that

For we are the temple of the living God! As God himself has said, "I will make my home with my people and live among them; I will be their God, and they shall be my people."
2Co 6:17 And so the Lord says, "You must leave them and separate yourselves from them. Have nothing to do with what is unclean, and I will accept you.
2Co 6:18 I will be your father, and you shall be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty."

HI Redman,
I understand. Even though you know rationally that your fears are not warrented your anxiety center is just looking for something to grab on to. So the thoughts of cancer get stuck in there. If you didn't have the problem of pure "O" (obsessional OCD), you would just be able to dismiss the thoughts and get on with living instead of endlessly ruminating about them. For me my health anxiety thoughts centered on fears of stomach ulcers, (really irritable bowel) and liver cancer,(mildly elevated liver enzymes from high cholesterol). Oh ya... and I was losing weight too - "must be cancer for sure" (nope, just lack of appetite due to OCD). I had all the test done imaginable.. all negative. Still I spent lots of time ruminating about that stuff.
I've found that medication doesn't make the thoughts go away but just takes the edge off the intense anxiety that they cause and enables me to do exposure/response therapy. Try to just "let the thoughts be there", don't debate them by trying to convince yourself or give evidence that they aren't true. Just let them be there don't give them attention or they will become stronger and your brain will want to dwell on them even more. Recognize them as OCD thought spikes let them be there like the background static of a radio. Learn to live with the uncertainty that they cause but don't debate, argue with or try to solve them. Remember that when you do those things you are telling your anxiety center that the thought is really, really important so it hangs onto it even more.
It's the ruminating that makes us miserable.
I'll be praying for you. Glad your taking the Zoloft, I hope it helps even more with time.
Blessings,
Mitzi

Even in death, we are alive.

1 Corinthians 15:55
55"Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?"[a]

I agree with Mitzi. I tried to figure this out and that out and I've found out that "not thinking about it" is the answer, so-to-speak. They say that OCD can be chemical imbalances. I believe it. I believe I see that at work in my own life. Chemical imbalances.

You've done the right thing to get cancer screenings. When you get older, cancer screenings should be done periodically, as they say. But if they come up negative, then that's the indication we're looking for. It's true that tests can miss cancer, but they are a helping tool. Your chest pain may be something else you need to look into.

Get your periodic cancer screenings when the doctors say you should. Not too frequently, because too many x-rays aren't good either. And don't let "Cancer" be on your mind all the time. It's normal to think different thoughts at different times. In the Bible, in the Book of Ecclesiates, it says there's a time for everything, including happy thoughts, etc.

God Bless You.
Dan