Am I weird for loving mothers day?
Mothers day this year was at the most unconvenient moment: confirmation day, plus in full wedding preparations, plus amidst the last weeks leading up to the exams in school. I've barely had time to breath in weeks, and I'm on a budget.
The thing is: my mother is a magnificent and wonderful woman and I am so utterly grateful for her. I try to show her how much I love her as much as I can in various ways throughout the year. We don't part or end a phonecall without saying either 'I love you' or 'God bless and keep you'. And we mean it. Even when we are annoyed with eachother. (She's hyper organised, I'm chaotic, it happens. *L*)) I remember as a child or a teenager that no matter how angry or upset I was or how much I felt wronged (as teenagers often feel) I couldn't sleep easy without her blessing. I would come back down to it, even with my anger still in my heart and feel lots of it left, when she made that little sing of the cross on my head.
I bet she ate countless burned breakfasts that I made for her as a child, or has received the little round boxes of la vache qui rit, painted Mary blue on the inside with flower shaped stickers and a little picture of our Lady in it.
Now that I'm grown, I try to do other things. Somewhere last year, I just went over there and cleaned out the clutter in every single cupboard in one of the rooms without telling her. After she had to run away from my father and finally had to divorce him, I've taken it on my to change her jewelry. With small things (but classy) while I was a student even. I couldn't afford diamonds, but I bought her a garnet hanger that she wore for years. It wasn't just the fact that I bought jewelry that I touched her, but that I told her that I wanted her to be able to wear some things that would not remind her of my father.
When I went to WYD last summer, I bought her a star with tiny stones in it, for her nameday at a jewelry store in Belgium. I told her I had a gift for her, but that I couldn't give it now and asked her to trust me. I came back from WYD and gave her the star saying that: "the theme that year had been to follow the star" (of Bethlehem, in the footsteps of the Wisemen) and that she had always been like the star of Betlehem, guiding me to God. She cried. And my mom does not cry easily.
We make a... point out of it to show eachother in word and deed how we love eachother. She bought me my wedding veil. I sometimes just call her up to ask her if she wants to come and eat at my place after a busy day at work.
This year... I barely had any time left. But I stayed up till after midnight, exhausted because I wanted a present for her. I embroidered a monogrammed hankerchief with M and E. The first letter of her and my name. I used the same colour that she is going to wear at the wedding for the M and the accent colour that I use for the wedding for the E, to tell her that I love her and that my marriage will not mean an end to that, on the contrary.
Yes, I love mothersday. I loved making my mom proud with the pasta necklaces and cardboard gifts of my childhood, the bought nightshirts or favorite perfume during my teens, the jewelry during my student days and later and the gifts that I give now and in the future. Mothersday is another day in which I can show my wonderful mother how much I love her.
