I have a weak heart emotionally. I can't get too sorrowful or too joyful or I'll faint. Sometimes, people hurt me so bad that my heart is in constant torture. I experience things on a higher level of emotional pain than most people. If people reject me, it does very bad things to me. It feels like I just lost a loved one, which I hadn't. Sometimes, I fall ill. I've always been this way and my mom thinks I always will be, for I inherited this condition from her (she has it too). I can't help it. Does this make me disabled in some way? I know people experience emotional pain, but mine tends to be on a higher level than most....and it can make me really sick or make me faint. It can also drain my energy so much I go to sleep really quickly. I had a friend reject me recently and I almost fell ill because my sensitivity of heart overtook me. And I'm still hurting. I usually experience very deep emotions, which some look upon as abnormal (deep love, deep hate, deep grief, deep joy). I don't experience anything lightly. Some people have actually hurt me on purpose because they are cruel and they knew I'd fall ill.
Does this make me disabled in some way? PHDs tested me and they found that only 3% of the nation of America (where I live) experiences deep emotional pain over very small things like I do. My friends sometimes hurt me (I can be hurt or deeply offended very, very easily), and when they see me crying over small things, they get puzzled, then they get angry and annoyed at me. I can't help it. And when I try to explain to them that I have a very sensitive heart naturally, they get even more annoyed at me and then they tell me to stop babbling (I talk a lot, I'm very social). That offends me a lot. They tell me that I have no excuse for my emotions and that I should just stop talking so much...but I like to talk...it hurts me so much when I am rejected. I usually experience deep sorrow.
A friend stopped talking to me recently, and I've been experiencing nonstop deep sorrow for over 5 months, and I don't know how to make my heart stop grieving! I know that is a small thing compared to what other people experience (like literally losing a loved one to the grave), but sometimes my head literally spins. I've tried so many things!
I want to be a stronger person and overcome my naturally weak heart but I don't know how.
Does this make me disabled in some way? PHDs tested me and they found that only 3% of the nation of America (where I live) experiences deep emotional pain over very small things like I do. My friends sometimes hurt me (I can be hurt or deeply offended very, very easily), and when they see me crying over small things, they get puzzled, then they get angry and annoyed at me. I can't help it. And when I try to explain to them that I have a very sensitive heart naturally, they get even more annoyed at me and then they tell me to stop babbling (I talk a lot, I'm very social). That offends me a lot. They tell me that I have no excuse for my emotions and that I should just stop talking so much...but I like to talk...it hurts me so much when I am rejected. I usually experience deep sorrow.
A friend stopped talking to me recently, and I've been experiencing nonstop deep sorrow for over 5 months, and I don't know how to make my heart stop grieving! I know that is a small thing compared to what other people experience (like literally losing a loved one to the grave), but sometimes my head literally spins. I've tried so many things!
I want to be a stronger person and overcome my naturally weak heart but I don't know how.